TOOTE NA YE SILSILA.......

3. A step forward

   
Shivay looked on as she went away, settled on the foot of the bed.

He didn't know if it was the good deeds or his luck, that Anika is still here. Beside him. With him.
He tried to harm her...
Omkara and Rudra insulted her...
These five years him being in cell.....  She was all alone here...

Did he deserve her? Her care? Her trust?

Does she deserve this insult?
His mind Straight away answered no.

Even after his past behaviour.......
She stayed. She waited. For him.
Why....?

His brain and heart answered him, this time. She married you because she want you as a life partner. Her soulmate.

But his mind mocked him,
"You aren't yourself, you are unstable, how are you going to be her soulmate, a life partner? "

"I...I will try to be....my best.... For....For her and myself..." his heart answered.

But his mind again fogged, Did she want him as a life partner? Even after five years? Even after him murdering his uncle?

Or

Is she scared of him? Does she trust him or is scared?

Why did she trust me? How?
His mind answered him,
"Because she is known to all of your personality. From the rude one, the deadly one to the soft and warm family loving person"
But does she?

Was that enough? For her to stay? For five long years?
Will she stay.... Even now? With him?
Or Leave...

But he didn't want her to leave...
He felt peace around her.

When his own family, didn't trust him?
"She did"
When they outsted him from family , she stood as his whole family. Alone.

He knew, she was the one. His soulmate.
Maybe.. Yess
If the soulmate meant.. Peace....... Comfort.... trust

But does she want it too?

She was his.....Wife...
His legal lawfully wedded wife.

Was she ready to spend her whole lifetime beside him? With him?

Once again....after a span of five years....
He didn't know anything.
Nothing about her.

He just sat there looking nowhere particularly, into his deep thinking.

He had so much to ask, to know, to.... Tell. But he was tired. Tired of the day. Room
Food. Events. Maybe Everything.

Even himself.
He just wanted to escape this. Run away from all these things, far away. Maybe with Anika. Somewhere far away from this.

Oberois kitchen

Anika looks on, to see them stealing glances. Rubbing their wounds, hiding them ashamed. She sighed, looking at the other side.
She didn't intend to say anything to them. After their moves, she is hurt. She didn't expect them to do so.

Maybe their anger, their anguish, them being hurt was justified. But this... How is she going to convince her heart that they are not at fault. They are at fault this time. 

They were at fault when they divided the house. 

They were at fault when they hurt their bhaiya knowingly.

They were at fault when they stole his speech and his hardwork.

They were at fault when they insulted him... And her.

They were at fault when they raised their hand at him.

How is she going to resolve all this.
She didn't wish too. Knowing this isn't the right time.
Because the priority for her is Shivay.
Bringing him back.
But she can't see them like this also.