Fanfics I'll never write but god I wish I would

Loki has to pretend to be normal again and how the fuck do you even do that

okay I'm fully copy-and-pasting from a tumblr post i wrote at like 1 am and part of it was in the tags so ignore the weird formatting 

this has probably been done before but has anyone ever written a fic where The Avengers just. like. didn't happen? like Thanos couldn't break Loki so he just threw him down to Earth or maybe Thanos did break him and the Mind Stone was supposed to make him do Evil Things except it stopped working after he went through the Tesseract? so Loki's just kinda There™ in SHIELD headquarters while the whole place is falling apart and everyone's just like ??? and Fury and Clint drag the very confused random man out of there before they all get very dead and Loki's either half-dead already because Thanos couldn't break him but he sure as hell tried or he's just very confused because the Mind Stone suddenly stopped working and it's just a very unproductive moment rn

and then stuff happens and Thor comes down to Earth and they manage to get the Tesseract from SHIELD somehow and they go back to Asgard and Loki hasn't actually really done anything that wrong so they go to see Odin and Odin's just like ........... because like yeah Loki kinda overthrew the monarchy but he was having a bad day and he does seem to realize that was wrong (at least enough that he's not actively trying to murder his brother again) so Odin just kinda awkwardly pats him on the back and welcomes him home

and then Loki just has to. like. live with it. and everyone's all weird about him now and they've always been weird about him but now they're extra weird about him because he was king for a day? and then fucking died? except he didn't? and then obviously Heimdall and Sif and the Warriors Three know what really happened which makes it even weirder when Loki comes back and tries to go back to his normal life and nobody's gonna tell him not to go back to his normal life because. like. he should do that. probably. but at the same time like twelve months ago Loki fucking killed himself and how do you just move on from that (and if you figure out the answer please tell Loki because he really doesn't fucking know)

because imagine the last time you were in Asgard the whole line of succession just fuckin Disappeared and you became king and then you kinda went insane and got a little bit violent and then got a lot bit suicidal and then a year of indescribable horrors pass and suddenly you're back in bed with your favorite book in front of you except there are no WORDS IN IT!!! but like there ARE words in it you just can't READ THEM!!! except you ARE READING THEM they're just not fuckiNG WORDS!!! THEY DON'T MAKE SENSE WHY CAN'T YOU READ 

oh right haha it's the ✨ t r a u m a ✨

but no one wants to talk about the trauma which is fine because you don't want to talk about the trauma either except if you don't talk about the trauma you will EXPLODE except if you do talk about the trauma you will DIE and all you wanted to do was play a little prank on your brother and maybe also stop him from becoming king for a few weeks because you weren't ready for him to become your legitimate superior yet because he's just your big bro and that's all you want him to be and if you'd known it was gonna be such a hassle you would've just skipped the stupid coronation and screamed into your pillow like a normal person with normal person coping mechanisms