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Very short part. Barely 1200 words. I am sorry

You are home. Alone

Sadie is filming something today again and you are bored. She supposed to be here in two hours

You tried everything to keep yourself busy but nothing worked

So now you are lying in your bed and staring into nothing. Your head is empty so you are literally just staring

Then you hear a key in the front door. You sit up to make sure because you aren't waiting for anyone except Sadie

"Y/n!! Love, i am home" you hear

It is Sadie. You jump off the bed and run to the door

"Yaaaaaayy" you scream as you run to Sadie

You hug her as soon as you have a chance and wrap yourself tightly around her

"I missed youu" you say in the hug

"I missed you too Y/n..but can you let me go? I don't want to die yet" she says practically without any air

"Sorry" you say and break the hug

Sadie smiles at you and takes off her shoes

"I was thinking...we can go to the pool today, what do you think? It's hot outside and we can spend time with each other" Sadie says while she is walking to your room

"Oh...yeah, sure" you say nervously

You really don't like pools, especially with other people. You don't like your body. It's not that you are fat, but you don't like yourself. More specifically you hate yourself. You don't like summer because of that you can't wear big hoodies and hide yourself

You haven't told Sadie or anyone this because you think it's stupid to think this way. But you don't want to say Sadie 'no' because you know she will ask you about it so you just nervously agree and sit on the bed

"What? Did something happen?" Sadie asks

It's obvious that she noticed your nervousness and knows that something must be wrong

"Nothing. Everything is fine" you say

"Y/n. What happened?" Sadie says and goes closer to you

"Nothing Sadie. Everything is okay i promise" you say as you stand up and give her a little kiss on her lips

"Okay" she says still not sure but she doesn't want to force you into anything so she lets it go for now

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"How do i look?" Sadie says as she walks into the room in her bikini

Your jaw practically drops as you look at her shocked. She looks so perfect you wish that you could look like this too

"Y/n? Earth to Y/n. Are you okay?" Sadie says and waves her hand in front of your face

"Yeah yeah..of course. You look perfect" you say

Sadie smiles at you softly and walks away again "Thank you" she says as she disappears

"Wow" you whisper to yourself amazed

Now it's your turn to change. You go to your closet and find your bikini. You are looking at it a few seconds and then sigh. You really don't want to but you 'have to'

When you change in the bathroom you look at yourself in the mirror and sigh. "I can't go like this anywhere. I am fat" you think as you watch yourself in the mirror

"Are you done Y/n?" Sadie says on the other side of the door

"... yeah" you say but what you didn't plan is that Sadie opens the door to look at you

She is standing there in shock looking at you from top to bottom

"You...you are beautiful Y/n" she says with a smile

"Of course i am not" you think to yourself again

"Thank you" you say shyly

"Okay come on. I am so excited for water" she says excitedly

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You walk out of your house in your normal clothes with your bikini under it. You lock the door behind you and follow Sadie

The pool is across the street so it's not far. You are there in two minutes. You are getting slowly more anxious but trying to fight it

You put your bag down. Sadie takes her t-shirt off and her shorts too leaving herself in her bikini. She doesn't wait any more second and jump into the water. She looks at you

"Y/n come on it's so nice here"

You look at her and then around you. There are so many people, you can't. Too many people here who can judge you. Too many people with better bodies than yours

"I am sorry Sadie" you say quietly and walk away

You can't hold back your tears anymore. You are quickly walking back home. To the place where no one can see you

You unlock the door, run to your room and slam the door behind you. You jump on the bed and crawl to the wall as close as can. You grab a pillow and press it against yourself wrapping your legs around it

You start to cry into the pillow and you hold it really tight. You are trying to calm yourself down. You are trying your best but it isn't working. It's only getting worse

After a while, you hear the door open and close but you honestly don't care. The only thing that you care about now is the pillow. Your only friend now

"Y/n. Y/n what's wrong? What happened?" Sadie says while running to the room

You look up a little and see her t-shirt back on her and her wet hair from the water. She looks really worried

Sadie sits on the bed and gets closer to you. You tense a little but relax after a few seconds again. You have red eyes and the pillow is completely wet from your tears now

"Y/n,..love. i am here, it's okay" Sadie says as she slowly hugs you

You don't say anything. You just lean against Sadie a little still with the pillow in your hands

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, but i am here for you..Always" Sadie says and kisses the top of your head

Her hand is slowly rubbing your back and comforting you. After about twenty minutes you take the courage and start talking

"I am sorry Sadie.." it's everything you can say now

"It's okay Y/n. Everything is okay" She says back

"How c-can you love someone like me?" You ask

"What do you mean? You are an amazing, beautiful and kind person. Of course i love you" she answers

"No..i am ugly and fat,..a-and you deserve better than me" you say

"That's not true Y/n. No one is better than you. You are perfect. You are beautiful. And you are mine and only mine" Sadie says

This makes you cry even more. You squeeze the pillow more, but then you feel her hand on your face

"Y/n look at me" she says

You slowly look up at her with tears in your eyes

"I mean it. You are perfect for me. You are beautiful the way you are. You are not fat. You are gorgeous" she says and kisses your forehead

She smiles at you and wipes your tears away. With that, you feel calmer

"I love you Sadie..but i don't deserve you" you say as you lay back down

"You do. And i love you too sweetheart. You are my everything"

Request from KaylaFierro3

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