I'ma be in the lavatory making bad decisions,
They say i am underachiever , i'm just trying to find a true reason
I walk around hostile and with my head on a swivel Understanding the problems it can cause.
That people will grasp the wrong impression of me.
Understanding it's stereotype on young black girls with attitudes and bad behaviors . Why do I conduct myself like this ?
When I know people gets the wrong impression of me
Because of my body language.
Im scared,
Im not pretty enough,
I sound weird when I talk ,
People won't understand me
Im different from other teenage girls
I got the shit from the 90's banging in my ear daily ,
Im scared of rejection.
I would rather be alone than judged .
Someone who I believe is sagacious asked me.
( if i loved myself )
I wanted to cry but I taught myself not to .
it's a sign of weakness.
I couldn't answer the question
I was just learning to like myself
Walked around hating myself ,
Someone I love dearly told me "I was a ugly person in the inside "
At the time I was
Just starting to change so it hit a soft spot
Cause the answer was no
It's a different between knowing the despise within me
Then someone ventilate to me
Now i'm shook lost for words
Caught my bluff and now naked
Emotions roaming free get me feeling vacant .
