Kaleigh's POV
Two weeks had passed, ilang araw na ring hindi nagpapakita sa'kin si Anaia. I don't have any idea kung nasaan siya, first day rin nila hindi raw ito pumasok.
How dare her, can't deny, I'm missing her presence. I asked Kalea pero kahit sila ay walang balita rito.
"Kaleigh Zaire, wait!" What a tiring yet bad day, I didn't stop walking when he suddenly held my hand.
"How dare you to touch my hand, fuck off" I coldly said, I wasn't in the mood for the past few days at lalong nawawala ako sa mood dahil sa gagong 'to.
He didn't let go of my hands.
"Just one dinner then, I'll stop bugging you." He desperately said. I wasn't born stupid, alam kong kapag pumayag ako hindi siya tutupad sa usapan, typical boys.
"Even if you don't stop bugging me, I still don't care about your presence boy" I nonchalantly said.
I felt his rage, but i don't care. It's not my fault if I am a straightforward person.
"Then let's have a dinner, shall we?" Punyeta.
"No is no, Keirk Bryn. Stop pestering me dahil wala na rin akong pake sa past na sinasabi mo" I harshly said and brushed off his hands against mine.
Keirk is my childhood friend back then, but when something bad happened between us, I immediately cut him off. Also, my dad's best friend is Keirk's dad.
He transferred in the school where I'm currently studying for us to be able to catch up daw, he thinks that he'll get my trust again huh? well, not anymore. One is enough, two is too much..
I'm not a bad nor kind person, I just treat people the way they treat me.. When it comes to trust, I trust people only once and the moment they fuck up, It'll be their loss not mine.
In my perspective, almost everything in this cruel world is a choice. It's just that we have an impulsive acts and decisions most of the time that actually lead us to mistakes. Isn't it ironic that, making mistakes are also a choice as well?
I decided to go to my comfort place when Kalea sent a picture, that suddenly made me stop the car.
It's Kamari Anaia.. laughing, hugging, and kissing a girl inside the café where I suppose to go to.
It feels like hundred knives, stabbing me exactly at my heart.. she's kissing a girl and obviously, it looks like she's enjoying it.
She made me feel special and quirky, but then I felt nothing but being worthless again the moment I saw the picture..
What the actual fuck?
It's not her fault tho, we don't have a thing.. We're just friends, yea right.. We're just friends..
Kal na NBSB:
We're here at the café, you still goin'? This bitch needs to meet my friend, ig.
Me:
On my way.
Am I regretting it already? Am I regretting it already na hinayaan ko siyang pasukin ang matataas na binuo kong pader for my own sake? I don't know what to say and what to feel, sa ilang araw namin na magkasama she already made me feel those different emotions.
I breathe deeply before going out inside my car, papalapit pa lang ako nakikita ko na agad na nag uusap sa mata sila Kalea at Kamari.
"What an impulsive ass you have, you didn't think before you made a stupid move." I heard Kezia.
"We're not in relationship, why do you even guys care? Bakit big deal sa inyo ang paghalik ko sa iba?" May panunuyang saad ni Anaia, looks like she's not sane.
I'm at their back, nakikinig sa pinag uusapan nila.
"Naririnig mo ba ang sinasabi mo huh? Akala ko ba seryoso ka na? nagpaalam ka pa sa amin tapos ngayon gaganyan ka ngayon, alam m-"
"She's right, we are not and we will not be in a relationship, E. " I coldly said.
I was hurt and I don't think she cares about it.. I face Kamari with a deadpan look.
"And I don't fucking care if you kiss someone again even if it's in front of me" I added. I need to act like a bitch, I don't want her to know that I'm being affected by her stupid move.
Kezia held my hand 'cause she know I am already losing my control. Anger issues..
"Let's go, E take care of Kaleigh. I'll just have a few words to this girl" A pertaining to Kamari.
"Okay, let's go L" Kezia seriously said.
Before I finally got out to the café, I saw Kamari wiping her tears..
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"Coffee, you want L?" Kalea asked.
"No thanks" I flatly said.
I heard them both sighed. We're here at my condo, I don't know what to do. This bullshit happened when I already realized that I'm falling in love with her.
I was afraid of being alone again at the end, I am afraid to fall for someone yet I'm doomed already. Perhaps, I'm a risk taker for her but I guess we're not on the same page.
"By your sudden actions lately, you're hurt. Are you already in love with Kamari, L?" They seriously asked.
"Yea, It may sounds cliché but I already like nor love her the first time I saw her at the café" I said almost whisper. I was controlling myself not to have a breakdown in front of them. I don't want them to see me vulnerable.
"She made me feel I'm worthy loving for yet she made me feel it's not worth it at all when it comes to me" They both hugged me.
"Everything will be alright, L. We always got your back" Kalea said with a warm smile.
It's funny how I didn't have the chance to know what is the real meaning of love 'cause first of all, I did not even had a chance to feel that 'love' from my so-called family. My life is a real mess, indeed.
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Katatapos lang ng morning class namin, we'll have recits and quizzes tomorrow. I was about to give a call to Kalea but her name popped out on my screen already.
"Kaleigh hindi muna kami makakasabay sayo, kumain ka na. May tatapusing plate lang kami ni E. Loveya!" Agad nitong bungad sa akin.
"Okay, take care" I replied.
I'm scrolling through my cellphone while walking when someone bumped at me. Oh It's her, Kamari Anaia.
"H-hi Zaire" I didn't respond to her, I just gave her a deadpan yet cold look.
"L-lets talk please" Nanay mo, talk.
"We don't have anything to talk about" I coldly said. She gently held my face but I suddenly brushed her hands off.
She looks.. hurt.. So am I.
"Just l-let me explain, please?" She pleasingly said.
"Just like what you've been said, walang tayo so para saan pa ang page-explain mo? you're just wasting my time" I nonchalantly said that made her stop and looks more hurt..
Damn, is she guilt tripping me? those thin almond eyes is hurtin'.. I hate her and her eyes for making me feel this way..
Patuloy na ako sanang maglalakad papuntang cafeteria when I heard her say..
"I-im sorry, Z-zaire. It's not my intention to hurt you, but I definitely chose it 'cause i l-love you.."
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Midnight Rain
Romance"Maybe we weren't built to build each other when we fall and maybe we were meant to be a lesson to each other."
