Im sorry I can't promise you to not hurt myself. The blood dripping down my arms and legs is what I need. I want to talk to anyone. Fucking anyone. I wanna grab some rope and just hang it up and imagine myself there. I want to put a knife to my throat and slide it across. I need that feeling of just letting all my pain go away. I need it. I need it. I don't need your "Are you okay?" Shit anymore. Of course I'm not fucking okay. Maybe I just can't be who I want to be. Someone who I can't be. Someone different. Someone who's better at everything. That everyone likes them. They have no drama or record of being bad at school. I FUCKING HOPE I CAN JUST LET IT ALL FUCKING OUT. I WANT IT ALL OUT. I WANT TO BE BETTER. HAVE GOOD FUCKING DAYS FOR ONCE. FOR FUCKING ONCE. its not a fucking question anymore.
IM
NOT
OKAY,
IVE
NEVER
BEEN
OKAY
They just don't fucking understand. I was supposed to get help and get fucking better but they just said that since I'm making friends, I'm fine and doing amazing and that my mental heath is the best. I WISH THEY WOULD BE IN MY FUCKING SHOES FOR ONCE!! I WISH THAT I COULD FUCKING YELL AT THEM! I WISH I COULD TELL THEM EVERYTHING THATS ONE MY FUCKING MIND BUT I FUCKING CANT!! I CANT!! CAUSE WHATEVER I TELL THEM WILL JUST GET ME IN TROUBLE!!
GOD
FUCKING
WHATEVER
WHOEVER IS IN CHARGE OF US
PLEASE
JUST
LET
ME
DIE
PLEASE
PLEASE JUST LET ME FUCKING DIE
I KNOW IM THE PROBLEM
JUST LET ME FUCKING DIE
FOR FUCKING ONCE
LET ME GET WHAT I WANT
LET MY FRIENDS BE HAPPY WITHOUT ME
THE PROBLEM
YOU ARE READING
vent book
RandomJust a vent book. If you see this, i don't know, its nothing special. a lot of trigger warnings. please dont vent in the comments, i might be in a very bad mental state at the time, if you need to vent, dm or pm me. some of these come from my old ve...
