III. questions

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does it make your skin crawl seeing me happy with someone else?

how badly does your heart ache whenever i pop up in the small mind of yours?

is it suffocating with a throat so tight air can't squeeze through?

have the guilt finally come to torture you the same way it did with me?

will it eat you whole or leave a small fragment of your soul to remember you by?

does my voice pierce through your heart like a burning arrow?

will you hate yourself the way i do?
to the point where i wish you would choke on your own tears.

just wait until sleepless nights comes by,
nightmares so vivid you would think i truly was there.

will you think of me when you are with her?
may i remain forever rent free in your head?

why did you have to put me through that?
does that night also repeat itself or is it just me that's stuck in the past?

have you forgiven yourself for what you did?
or was it never wrong in your eyes?

so many questions,
but never any answers.

{written march/april 2023}

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