Why do I feel like I'm about to do something messy, like calling you?
When I feel abandoned, I learn how to love you without sharing my feelings. It's complicated. I feel strong enough to stand alone, weak enough to get lost in your hazel eyes.
I'm scared that you'll reject me if I ask if you want to grab my waist and pull me into a passionate kiss.
I'm afraid that you'll say no and it will be awkward and you'll never want to talk to me again. Because I feel this strong connection to you, I feel like anything is possible. Loving you is hard, I don't know that I can do it. I imagine you spending time with me, having cups of tea, you sketching my stories about horoscopes. Me teaching you how to sing in Gaelic.
Every time I talk to you this dream meets reality like a ton of bricks crashing down to crush my heart.
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Love and other feelings: a poetry anthology
PoetryLove poetry from a disabled woman's perspective. WARNING: a bit raunchy! You've been warned :P
