Is This Love?

-Chapter 11-

I wake up shaking, panicking.

A soft wall to my left stirs and a soothing voice comes from it, "Little one, what's wrong?"

I try to speak, but all that comes out is a whimper. It's too hot, too sweaty, too much panic. I need to go to the bathroom. What is a bathroom? All I manage to say is "Bathroom."

In my dazed form, I am picked up and suddenly the light comes on. I groan because hurts to see.

"Alright baby, it's ok. You are ok. You had a nightmare. Everything is ok." A soothing voice is to my left.

Everything is fuzzy. I lean onto what feels like a soft wall. And the soothing voice comes back.

"Hey baby, it was a nightmare, but you also had a panic attack. Let me see your eyes sweet boy."

However, all I could muster was "Please...light...off." 

The soft wall moves. I didn't know walls could move. I was leaning against a hard cold ceramic thing. The lights turned off and the soft wall came back.

Something was coming up my throat. I tried to stop it but it didn't. The ceramic thing was now under me. A disgusting-tasting liquid came out of my mouth.

The soothing voice came back. "There you go, don't try to keep it down, baby. Let it out."

I rest my body against the soft wall. Like the light, I was out.

I was up in the morning. The clock reads 8:07. My head is pounding, my body hurts, and the Alpha beside me speaks. "Look at me," My eyes turn and meet his, "You ok?"

"Yea, why? What happened last night? You look like shit."

The Alpha turns to me, "You had a nightmare and panic attack. You couldn't even speak. Do you still want to do today bec-"

"Yes! Of course!" I try to get off the bed and walk to the bathroom, but as soon as I get up my whole body collapses.

My Alpha rushes over to me. "Maybe we should wait-"

"No! Please don't make me wait. I have wanted to do this before, I just didn't realize it. Please, can we still do tonight?"

"Yes, little one, we can still do tonight. Don't do anything strenuous. I want you in working order tonight." His hands rub my inner thigh, "When I fuck you up."

Before I could stop it, a moan escapes my mouth and my face flushes bright pink.

"So you like the thought of me fucking you." He gives me a mischievous look, which made me nod with desire. "Answer with words, little one"

Another moan escapes my mouth "Please, can we just mate now please!"

"Tonight, little one, tonight. I love getting you all worked up, and begging for me. Didn't think I would get those words out of you." The look was still on his face. He squeezes my inner thigh. My face grows an impossible red from horniness and embarrassment. He is going to fuck me tonight...

We end up going back to bed for a little less than an hour. Sebastian was all over me the whole time. By the time we got separated for our shifts, it was 9:30.

We ran into each other several times throughout our shifts because I was his Beta. Every time, he would check up on me and then tell me how excited he was for tonight.

Kaiden said that he would pick up my work so I could leave early to get ready. I am honestly so excited for tonight. The words that Sebastian has spoken to me have created excitement for what should happen later in the day.

Not long after I get out of the shower, Cainan busts through the door. He has been having the lingerie in his room because I didn't want Sebastian to find it.

"Are you ready? You are going to have to tell me how it goes! Here is your lingerie. I hope he likes it. Do you want to help put it on?" and a thousand more questions went on.

"Calm down Cainan. I am sure he will and maybe, I don't think I had it on completely right at the store so I wouldn't mind some help.  Let me at least start to get it on so you don't see all my bits."

I take the gold lingerie from him. It was honestly probably made for a woman, but it fit me because I had a small rib cage and big-ish pecs.

I get the lingerie on. It looks even better than when I tried it on at the store. I am hoping that Sebastian likes this.

I call out to Cainan. "Alright, you can come in!"

Cainan steps into the bathroom and freezes, "Oh, My Goddess!!!! It looks so good on you. Here, you need to get the back strap."

"Thank you. I am excited for tonight. I hope he likes everything...... I mean I know he will, but still."

"Do you know what he has planned for you guys?"

"No, all I know is that we are going to a cabin in the woods. We might be having dinner there. Or we could just do our business the whole night. But I honestly don't know."

"Well, you are going to have to tell me about it when you guys come home tomorrow for the mating ceremony."

"I don't know. I might just want to keep that between us."

"Mkay, well I am going to go. You might want to get ready. He will be back to get ready in a few."

"Ok thank you for everything Cainan."

"Of course." and with a smile he left the room.

I got dressed in a cream sweater and some dark brown pants. I wore some gold jewelry to bring a hint to my lingerie. It was surprisingly comfortable.

Shorty after I walk downstairs, Sebastian goes into our room to change. After about 30 minutes, he comes out to leave and damn does he look good.

I am so excited for tonight...