Papi

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Carlos was at ceasers place in only a few minutes , greeting Oscar before making his way towards ceasers room , frowning when he saw the teen curled up in a ball on the floor , rocking back and forth as he mumbled to himself
"que pasa cariño", Carlos asks softly , making ceaser look up with a tear stricken face , only getting more teary eyed when he saw Carlos coming over to him
" I'm sorry ,I - I - I didn't mean to, it just happened , I'll never do it agian and I didn't even , I didn't even initiate- I didn't , I swear , Carlos , please ....", ceaser pleaded guiltily as he stood up on shaky legs, cupping Carlos's cheeks as he reached him , who's frown deepens as his brows furrowed , half confused and half not wanting to know , ceaser wouldn't cheat , would he , does this even count as cheating , he didn't even know what ceaser was saying
" what are you even talking about ", Carlos sighs ,bringing his hands up to wipe the tears from ceasers face gently , his eyes full of confusion , making ceaser choke back a sob at the soft touch , more tears falling down his cheeks and stumbling back , away from Carlos , making hurt flash across his features at the action , his arms dropping at his sides
" she ..... she - monse kissed me ", ceaser chocked out in a soft whisper , and Carlos swallowed thickly , pursing his lips as he nodded , processing the words
" and ...... and I .... I kissed her back - but - it wasn't even for a second , I don't even know why I did it , I think there's something wrong with me , or maybe like - natural reaction , and it felt so wrong , I never want to kiss her again , and I'm —- im so sorry , I'm so so sorry , Carlos , please , I'm sorry —-", ceaser starts to sob quietly , falling back onto the floor , balling himself back up as he cried , stammering out how sorry he was , and Carlos frowned , unable to watch ceaser in pain c coming over to him and pulling him up , sitting on the bed and pulling ceaser onto him
" I know , I know your sorry ", Carlos sighs into ceasers neck , who's hesitantly puts his arms around Carlos before tightening them after he realised Carlos wasn't going to push him away , breathing heavily and trying to control his breathing as they rocked slightly from side to side , dispute Carlos now knowing he was sorry , and what had happened, he didn't stop whispering how sorry he was , cause he truly didn't believe any one could feel this guilty , or feel so bad about such a stupid kiss , he wished he could take it back , cause now things might change , and god , he didn't want things to change with them
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Ceaser slept with tear stained cheeks in Carlos's arms , who was riddled and plagued with his mind for hours on end before finally falling asleep , coming up with half a solution to what happened the night before , holding ceaser close to his chest tighter than he usually would of on any other night
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" boy , where do you think your going ", Carlos huffed , sitting up tiredly as he tried to blink himself awake , and ceaser smiled at him , shrugging his backpack onto his shoulder
" if I'm a boy , don't that make you a pedofile , Carlos ", he chuckled , letting out a umph when Carlos pulls him onto the bed , more onto his lap
" first , pucker them lips n' gimme a kiss-", Carlos chuckles , leaning closer to place a kiss on the youngers lips when he does
" secondly..", ceaser asks , raising his brows as his throat tightened , looking down at his hands instead of Carlos
" secondly ... watch your attitude", the man finishes , tipping ceasers head up and kissing his lips concerned more
" and I gotta speak to you after school or something , just don't stick with that puta for too long or by yourself , yeah ", Carlos hums out , pulling ceaser into a deep kiss once he finished speaking , leaving the teen breathless , stumbling slightly when Carlos pushed him off his lap to stand him up
" watch those legs , the only thing I want you tripping for is me ", Carlos chuckles , lying back down in the bed
" right , okay , talk later then , see you later , papi ", ceaser waves , swallowing thickly and not letting himself look back once he called Carlos papi , was he even still aloud to call him that , we're they gonna break up , did Carlos hate him , can Carlos act so well to act almost the exact same after finding out he practically cheated on him with the girl that popped his cherry and used to be in love with , the whole thing was fucked .
He was snapped out of his thoughts when he noticed monse herself along with ruby and Jamal outside , making him slow in his steps , frowning when they started to walk in a group and he ended up beside monse , don't get him wrong , monse was fine , just not right now
" I can't do this . I can't keep a secret ", Jamal finally got out , unknowingly breaking whatever tension was between the other three of them
" it's gonna make me implode. I don't know why anybody keeps secrets ", he rants out , and monse looks to ceaser , who avoids looking her way
" there's something I need to tell you ", monse starts , all smiling when they hear hun shots going off in the distance
" 44", they all call out , and ceaser looks over when he notices his brothers car
" ceaser ", Oscar nods to the back of the car , pulling up beside the group , making ceaser leave the group , coming over to get on the back of the car as Oscar pulled his seat up so he could get in , then driving off
" I heard you crying in your room last night , little spooky , got something to fess up to , normally Carlos don't come onto our territory for late night calls", Oscar asks dryly , able to keep the worried tone he would use out of his voice and face due to another member of the santos being in the car , who started silent as he spoke , looking over his shoulder to ceaser wide eyed , who sighs at the blunt and intrusive question
" nothing really , we're gonna fix it later ", ceaser shrugs , brushing off the topic
" you better , we can't stand to be on bad terms with the aminos's just cause you being a little bitch ", Oscar  huffs , talking his fingers against the wheel as he spoke , and ceaser clenches his jaw at his choice of words, leaning back in his chair , just hoping they'd get to school faster so the drive would be over and done with