Forgetting Reira

Wanting

Wanting. That's what Reira dose to you makes you want. When your with her she builds you up and is faithful, almost like a dog. Then she leaves and moves on to the next. I don't know why I feel like I deserve something from her but I do weather it's closer, a reason she did it, or an apology.
I want something maybe deep down I never forgot how she made me feel or how I felt about her. Maybe I want.... her?
I got home so frustrated and upset but I didn't want Miranda to know so I acted like i was tired when I got home.
As soon as I entered our house she gave me lots of affection. Deep down I kinda needed that. She was so excited, she began planning things for the wedding and calling all her friends and in the mist of this she dug up her old photo album.
Babe look. She said eagerly showing me each and every picture.
We flipped through pages and pages when a picture popped up that stunned me.
It was a picture of me and Reira when we were going out she had her arms wrapped around me a big smile and her same stupid skunk stripes in her hair. One blonde streak on each side.
Awe babe that's a good picture of you and Reira.
Miranda looked at the picture with a gentle smile.
Aren't you bugged that her and I went out.

No. She was my best friend.
She stared at the picture, and said smiling. Wile touching the side Reira was on.
She was the one person I trusted and was always there for me she listed to me complain, gave me advice. She was the sister I never had. I miss her she was my very special friend.
What happened? Did you guys get in a fight.
No. After she went to Columbia University, she said that I needed to stay, I asked why? She said someone very important will be here, and that I needed him and he needed me. After that we stopped talking.
This was strange how did she know we were together if they stopped talking?
So you guys don't hang out or text or email, anything like that?
She looked at me confused.
No... I think she changed her number or something because I never got a hold of her. She still sends me Christmas, birthday, valentines gifts you name it she'll send a gift for whatever holiday.
I was getting freaked out why and how did she know about me and M? They never talked since freshman year of college when she moved. Also I don't talk to many people from the past, non that know Reira I think. This was scary to me.

After I called in at work and slept for a couple of hours. I decided to go back to Reiras office, I wasn't done talking to her.
I went in somewhat casual clothes.
A button up navy blue shirt with the sleeves rolled up, a pare of dark colored jeans and black dress shoes.
I was ready to face Reira and show her what she missed out on.
I got to her office and looked for her. She was in a separate room going through papers and filing things in cabinets.
On the door read a sign that said " head of all novel's" under that was Reiras full name . The whole office was glass so you could see everything she was doing. I collected myself and walked in.
I knocked on the door when I was in the doorway.
So I guess your a busy little bee aren't ya.
She continued to do what she was doing and didn't even look at me.
Well Mr Sandaval what can I do for you this fine afternoon?
I chucked a bit. You know Reira you can call me by my first name we've known each other for a wile now.
She grabbed a paper and walked over to her desk.
Like I said Sandaval, my personal life stays out of my work. So here your Mr Sandaval and I'm either Reira or Collins to you.

OK whatever like it matters.
I said stepping in her office.
Reira look I came because things were just.... not right and I think it's time that apologies were given.
She was standing writing something down and looked up at me. That moment it was silent for a bit which gave me time to see Reiras clothes. Which was a big baggy red sweater and a pair of blue jeans and brown combat boots.
Sandaval if you're expecting me to apologize for yesterday or the past events that led up to now I won't.