Kinn's POV:::
"I don't see why we need to create a new branch. We would just be out more money than we already are."
I am in my home office on a video call with Pa and Uncle.
"I agree." Pa said.
Just as I was fixing to speak, my office door opened.
Porsche walked in and I pulled my seat back, letting him sit in my lap with his head in the crook of my neck.
"As I was saying, why do we need to create a new branch?" I ask.
"Probably because he doesn't want Vegas around him anymore." Porsches mumbled and we both chuckled.
"Just think it over. I have an important matter to attend to." Uncle said and we ended the call.
"Are you hungry baby?" Porsche asked as he stood up.
"Yeah a little." I said and he led me downstairs to sit down in the kitchen.
He disappeared into the kitchen for a moment before coming out with three plates on each arm.
"Wow! This is really good!" I exclaimed when I took a bite
"Really? Thank you ," Porsche said.
He's always been very insecure with me.
He thinks he isn't good enough, therefore he tries too hard and pushes himself.
I told him to just be himself but he shrugs it off and says that he already is.
I looked at him concerned as I studied him for a moment .
He looked paler than usual and is very shaky when he goes to pick something up.
"Are you alright?" I ask.
He looks up at me and I note the dark circles under his eyes .
"Yeah. I-i'm alright." He said and I held his hand before speaking.
"You know, it's okay to not be okay. Do you want to talk about it?" I asked softly.
He sighed and looked back at me.
"We will talk tonight, okay?" He said and I nodded.
After that, Porsche was very quiet that evening.
I was sitting on the bed , legs crossed, with a box of tissues and a pillow, knowing that this is going to be a long talk.
When he walked out of the bathroom and saw me, he just smiled softly and sat in front of me .
"Before I start, can I ask you this? Please don't say anything until I'm done?" He asked me and I nodded.
He sighed and began .
"It started the day you asked me to be your boyfriend.
I keep getting these agonizing thoughts that you will find someone better and toss me to the side.
When these thoughts invade my mind, I try my best to push them away and make you as happy as I can.."
He stopped and took a shaky breath, then continued.
" Then I started getting these horrifying nightmares of you leaving me in the worst ways possible.
I can't even go back to sleep when I wake up from one, so I just go lay on our couch until it's time to start the day."
Oh. So that's why I would always wake up after him.
Fuck!!!
How could he be in so much pain and I didn't notice?!
He wiped the tears on his face before speaking again.
"And these have became a daily thing now."
He said .
I pulled him into a tight hug.
"I'm so sorry baby. I didn't realize this was happening." I whispered
