love birds

I miss you

— So the break up's official now ?

— Don't say it out loud... it's a sensible topic !

— You came here to talk bout that though, my uncle laughed as I rolled my eyes.

— You're such a bad therapist man.. I threw the basketball at him which he was quick to catch on reflex and shoot a 3.

I just watch him do so while I was standing still, lost in my thought yet another time. For the past 2 weeks since we argued I've been visiting uncle Aaron way more often now... unintentionally maybe ? Maybe just to prove myself how good he was, to confirm my trust in him because I still doubt or should I say I don't trust Gwen's words. If he was a murderer, he'd have weapons at his house at least right ? Well I discreetly searched for some just in case and of course because I still tried to give her the benefit of the doubt.. I found nothing !

And it felt like all this was bothering only me, everyday at noon we would go to the cafeteria with the boys, just to see the trio had once more found a table for themselves. From time to time they accepted for Pavitr to eat with them but I could just watch her laughing with her friends from afar, and above all knowing I wasn't the one behind that smile. Food never tasted so bland than at these moments to be honest.. I've send her multiple « hey », « how you doin » « can we talk » messages but she wouldn't even open them. Not because she wasn't active though, 'cause yeah I've been on her account (everyday actually) watching her stories and posts on Instagram. This whole week felt like hell. And I can't believe that was how my life was before she came. Boring. Like Ganke's jokes aren't even funny and Hobie seems busy with preparing himself to travel.
Apart from that I honestly hoped to talk to her 3 days after she went all out on me since we shared P.E class on Thursday but she was absent for the day. And then next Monday she was still ignoring my being.

— Yo little man ? My uncle waved his hand before my eyes. You ain't gonna cry just 'cause of some chick right ? He spoke while slowly walking backwards to the orange ball that he picked up. He passed it back to me as I frowned catching it on my torso level.

— Real men cry. I shrugged before trying to shoot a 3, of course I missed. I sighed rolling my eyes.

— Real men don't. He corrected as I raised an eyebrow, that man's so old fashioned. As August Alsina once said, « They say a man ain't supposed to cry, so I'mma let the song cry ». That means if you ever upset man, just let it out on what's you. You is basketball, you is drawing. You ain't all about that girl so stop whining 'kay ? He told me as I started thinking.. well... he's not totally wrong. I'm not gonna cry just for Gwen. Instead... I ran to the ball and grabbed it in a smooth move before dunking it right.

— I won't do that, I then said. I'm a sore loser so... I'll win her back. I smiled fully confident. He's right, crying and whining after her is meaningless, I better pull myself back together and actually make a move if I want something to happen. I looked at uncle Aaron with my grin and for a second it looked like I misunderstood him, like he didn't want that kind of reaction from me, but he just shrugged it off.

— Being single is better than being lied to.. he muttered while dribbling around.

• • •

You know even if it was weird and tough not being in touch with her like usual, I felt good that we were finally Thursday. Now I can make my move. Of course mom had noticed how I was lately and most of all Gwen's absence. She got used seeing her showing up at least twice a week I guess. But I didn't tell her we broke up, it's not a lie in fact since we getting back together soon right ? I just told her we had test incoming so she was working hard.