love birds

The truth always comes out..

I sighed before the text I just received, Miles had just sent me a « hey Gwen, you alright ? » and I've been reading it again and again for a whole minute. Hesitating on either I should answer it or not. « Of course I am, why wouldn't I be ? » I sarcastically typed at first, but after a second of thinking I shook my head and deleted it. « Leave me alone Miles... » I then wrote, my fingers started wandering on the screen as I bite my lower lip, unconsciously writing « don't give up on me please.. » but I deleted all of that, closing the iMessage app and turning off my phone. I threw myself on my bed exhaling, it was all just too hard. Everything was messy in my head and I knew that I just wanted him to hug all the problems away. Why'd it has to be so difficult ? Why'd he has to be related to the man that.. murdered Peter...

What would Peter recommend me to do in a situation like this ? Probably something like « listen to your heart.. » but I'm the type of person to prioritise my brain because I know it will end up better for me in the end. My heart is telling me to go back to Miles, try again for the sake of our love but my brain is more reasoning, I mean I can't go back with Miles and we'll just live happily knowing a murderer is close from him and literally ruined my life. I can't do that. I sighed again, standing up to go downstairs. As I was walking down the stairs, I noticed my father sitting in the kitchen listening to his radio while drinking some cups. Cups of apple juice of course. I faintly smiled at the view and went closer to him. It's funny how much occasions I had of telling him everything, but I just freaked out every single time and never did.

At first it was because I was scared of them, but now it's because I'm afraid to lose Miles. For good now. What would happen if they put his uncle in jail ? Would he hate me or would he understand me ? I don't even really know him anymore, he could have any reaction at this point, I feel like he's blinded by his strong link with his uncle, so much that he doesn't see me anymore.

I squeezed my lips as I finally reached my father.

— Hey dad, I'm kinda hungry.. I told him delicately putting a hand on his shoulder as he turned around with his warm smile. I put my phone on the table with my second hand to have it free.

— There's food, but if you're telling me that I believe you want something specific to eat ? He chuckled guessing my thoughts just right.

— Touché.. I replied.

— Haha, you look kind of down and I want something different too today so, what we're eating ?

— Pizza. I simply answered as he nodded.

— Alright... he then took his card from his back pocket and handed it to me. Take whatever you want, but it's kinda late so can you go with Miles ? You can bring him over for dinner if you want, it's been a moment since I've heard of him.. he smiled.
My lips formed an O as I looked down, wondering if I should just tell him already. How did Miles do ? Did he told his parents already that we broke up ? Why wouldn't he though..

— Miles.. um I.. we've broken up. I finally admitted before putting both hands in my pockets. There was a loud silence as dad stayed still, not moving an inch until at least two minute passed. He stood up in silence and took two steps to come in front of me. Without hesitating he took me in his arms, and it felt good being hugged by someone in such a difficult period so I sinked my head inside, trying to hold the tears.

— I'm sorry Gwen... you want to talk about it ? He softly asked grabbing me by my shoulders placing a small distance between us.

— No.. not now. I shook my head, if I want to tell him, I can't lie to him I shall tell him the truth. All of it. A small moment of silence came again before I interrupted it. Well.. it's only 8PM, I'm a big girl dad I'll be back in less than an hour with our pizzas. I nodded at him as he nodded back, I then took some steps towards the door before leaving making sure to close the door behind me.