Whispers of the heart

hatred

y/n pov

as i watch some boys carry winston to the med jack tent i ask minho what happened but just as clueless as i am he doesn't know.

Alby calls a emergency meeting to figure who beat up winston so they can get punishment.

"well all saw what happened with winston and someone needs to own up to it"alby says

silence

"it was probably y/n since he started that rumor about her"

"um i was changing when that happened you guys saw me come from the restroom."i say crossing my arms

"i did see gally leave the dining hall after winston" another boy speaks up

"i didnt have anything to shucking do with that shank"he says leaning on a wall

"maybe you were tryna protect your precious"

"yea we see the way you look at her"

they were taunting him

"what were they talking about?"

as the taunting got even worse he finally broke

" oh please i can care less for that whore!"he says

my heart sinks as the room goes quiet.

"WHORE!?"i walk furiously towards him and lunge at him

"FUCK YOU GALLY"i say tryna punch him as the other boys pull me back

"I DONT KNOW WHY I WAS EVER NICE TO YOUR LAME ASS"i say as i finally land a punch at his face.

i watch gally fall to the ground.I wanted to feel bad but i just couldn't i hated him.

-time skip-

i sit in the pit and just cry quietly to myself

i had to stay in here for two days with no food.that was my punishment but i could care less about eating

it was dark.I was furious.

"How could he say something like that"
"was he still mad about the first night"

All these thoughts about gally flooded my head but i really fucking hated him.

"psst...pssst y/n"i hear someone whisper

i look up to see chuck.

"oh..hey chuck.." i respond quickly wiping my tears

"i brought you some food" he says as he lifts the gate of the pit up and passes me food

"oh thats really sweet chuck thanks"i say smiling

"i wanted you to know that...i don't think you're...a whore."he says hesitantly

"oh thanks chucky" i say with a slight chuckle

as he rambles on about how he would have protected me against gally i couldn't pay attention.My head was filled with confusion and anger but most of all sadness.

"y/n? are you okay"he ask

"huh!oh yea im just..im just tired"i say faking a yawn.

"oh well ill let you go to sleep then,goodnight!"he says before getting back to his hammock.

i couldn't sleep i tried but all i could see when i closed my eyes was..gally when we were in the tent and i was bandaging him up.i remember all the feautures of his face.if i hated him so much why was thinking about him so much.

i close my eyes and eventually fall asleep.

my days of punishment pass and no type of interaction between me and gally happens.i was furious every time i saw him.

as i was working with chuck he speaks

"hey y/n you okay you've been really quiet lately"

"yea im just not feeling good"i say wiping the sweat off my eyebrow giving him a reassuring smile.

"well you should probably go get checked out make sure its not anything serious"chuck says with worry

"dont worry ill be fine." i say rolling my eyes and continue to work.

as the heat rises i get to the point where i can no longer bare it

"you know..i think i will go get checked out"i say to chuck and start walking to med jacks.

i can feel the beads of sweat dripping off my face and my heart slowing down.My walking starts to slow down as soon as im outside of the tent.Im about to open the tent until hear gallys voice.

my eyes widened i run back to chuck

"chuck..i cant go in there..!"i say out of breath

"y/n you need to sit" he says helping me to sit down

"no im fine really.." i say just as i start to lose vision and finally pass out from the heat.