"Fake" Dating || A Billie Eilish Story

20.

"Did maggie take the news well?" I glance at billie who's getting dressed. BIllie turns around putting her bra back on. She shrugs a little bit.

"I think so, she was excited to say the least" She comes back to the bed laying on my stomach. I look at the ceiling a little bit more. "What's going on in that head of yours?" She looks up at me.

"oh nothing" I continue to look up at the ceiling. She crawls higher to see my face.

"i know there's something wrong" She pokes my cheek until i laugh. She takes her hand away examining my face.

"Just thinking about things" I take her hand into mine.

"Like what?" Her voice turned softer and gentler as she started to listen.

"you're a celeb bil, i'm still a nobody" I look up at the ceiling.

"Hey," She cups my face. "Look at me. It's not like you to be so negative. I love you Astrid i really do, everything is okay you know. I love you so much, i don't care what the status you are in society" I feel a tear run down my cheek. She pulls me closer to her while i cry. "I'm not going anywhere i promise"

"I shouldn't be crying" Billie uses her thumb to wipe away my tears.

"I think this is only the second time i've seen you cry you know" She holds me tightly. i think she's trying to distract me like she feels bad for something she said?

"wait really?" She nods her head as we sat in silence. "I love you too bil" I feel my body get tired.

"You do?" She looks at me waiting for my response.

"I do" She smiles while her face turned a pasty red in no time. I close my eyes feeling safe in her arms once again. I think she thought i was asleep when she whispered something.

"That poem makes sense now" I rub my eyes a little looking up at her in pure confusion. Her eyes went a little wide but her face went red again.

"What poem?" I rest my head on her chest. I feel her heartbeat that was a little fast.

"By william shakespeare, it said, if i were to kiss you then go to hell, i would. so then i can brag with the devils i saw heaven without ever entering it" She looks away from my face with embarrassment.

"That's beautiful" I move her arms to be around me cuddling up more into her. I feel her smile on my cheek.

I wake up later with her just watching tv peacefully. I squeeze her tighter and see her little smile out from the corner of my eyes. I nuzzle my face more into her neck. Feeling her squeeze me more.

I hear a buzz then billie talking.

"hey" Her voice was at a whisper. "She's asleep right now... i just told you what she was doing...No i'm not waking her up. I don't care danny. It's not fake anymore" There was a long silence that filled the air. "Danny i can't do the fake shit anymore, it's real now so i'm not doing that. Things have been booming since it happened and you can even talk to finneas i've been so much happier. I'm not going through a deep depression for you again." It went silent except the only thing that was making noise at this point was the tv.

"hey" I spoke without moving.

"did i wake you?" She played with my fingers and the rings i had on it. I leaned into her more thinking about things.

What if we don't work out in the end?

"You didn't"

"so you heard some of it" The questionable tone in her voice was very real.

"Yeah i did, only what you said though" She doesn't move much but its pretty quiet. "Do you think we will last" I run my hand down her arm. It's silent for a while when she doesnt answer.

I think she thinks we wont last.

"I'm gonna head home" I tell her while i started to get out of bed. She didn't say anything while staring off into space. "You okay" I look down at her. She looks up at me but, it looks like she isn't here.

"Billie" I sit down back on the bed looking at her with concern.

"what?" She looks down with her head in her hands.

"I'm going to go back home. Do you want to come or do you want to stay?" I hoped for her to come along.

"Let me get some clothes" She gave a half smile towards me while she got up. "You can steal clothes too" She slipped on the hoodie i gave her days ago.

"Do you want to come or stay? It doesn't seem like you want to come" Billie takes a look at me hearing the tone in my voice go sour. She opens her arms out towards me.

"cmere" She walks towards me more giving a needed hug. "I want to go, i'm just tired right now"

"we can stay for the night" I tried to make it easier for her. "we could start moving some of your stuff in the morning too" I reasoned out. She thought about it for a while.

"Alright then let's get some sleep" Billie pulled me to the bed letting out a deep sigh.

"I love you"

"I love you too mama"

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