I don't want to get better.
Even when I feel like I am starting to feel good the nagging though in the back of my head is not letting me.
I got so used to negative feelings that I found some form of comfort and control over myself in them. When I'm clean for a longer while my head just tells me that I want it to get worse and to hurt myself again.
I wouldn't know... I wouldn't know what to do when the feelings disappeared.
And still I'm finding myself thinking that I'm making it up and to just suck it up because ,,Others have it worse than me".
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The Stories In My Head
Short StoryThe story includes topics of self-harm and suicide!!!! My feelings are getting out of hand so instead of hurting myself I decided to tell stories. Some more or less true but mostly portraying what's going on in my mind.
