TRIGGER WARNING MENTION OF CUTTING
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Shota had ran in the room for the comfort of his blade he kept hidden in a book he has in his shelf, after he grabbed the blade he continued to lock the door and sit down infront of it as he pulls down his pants and realizes his previous cuts had been broken open from their previous performance on stage. He had done a few cuts before he hears the members run into the dorm after him and yell for his name. They had scared him and while he was cutting, he had accidentally gone to deep and cut deeper and more into the skin wincing at the pain.
As he's trying to stop the bleeding with a shirt random shirt he sees on the floor, he hears the memers trying to open the door and start apologizing
"Soulie-kun we're sorry. We're so sorry for everything." Keeho knocks on his door and tries to open it realizing it was locked
Jongseob was next to start saying his apologies, "Shota hyung I'm sorry that we neglected you, i miss you so much and i never meant to hurt you. You would always ask us to hang and we would always say no and I'm truly so sorry for that. You didn't deserve any of that."
Shota was now full-on sobbing on the other side of the door as he sat there
Jongseob slid down the door mirroring how shota was sitting now on the other side of the locked door and was now tearing up
"Hyung.. I miss you. I miss you so much and I love you so much, i'm sorry for hurting you, all you needed was some attention and we couldn't even do that for you.." Jongseob lets out a sob
"Im so so sorry hyung for neglecting you, i miss you so much and i dont expect you to forgive me or any of our hyungs but i will prove as much as i can to you how sorry I am if you just open the door and let me in.. pl-please."
Theo sits down next to Jongseob and pulls the young boy into a hug as he continues to speak
"What we did has no excuse, there's truly no excuse for us not talking to you. But we're so so sorry that we hurt you and made you feel so alone," Theo had said to Shota on the other side of the door
"All you wanted was a friend to be with you, And we are your friends, and your family. But we hurt you in a way that was so wrong, and im truly so sorry for that baby. Every day we had a break, you would ask us to spend time with you and we just got caught up in so many other plans with each other, that we didn't realize that we were spending no time with you," Jiung spoke.
Intak was next to speak up, "Soulie, we're all idiots, We are truly, We don't deserve your forgiveness and have no justification for what we did. We told you before debut that we work as a team. that you would not be alone in this place and that we were your new family. But we still hurt u and continued to leave you alone"
"We failed you, as your friends and as your hyungs Shota. We really, really messed up, and we want to make it up to you. We can't apologize enough, and we will do anything we can to prove that we love you so much." Keeho said with complete honesty and sadness in his voice
Shota was crying and the members could hear it to which made them feel even worse. Shota had thought about everything they said, and he knew they were being sincere. They new their mistakes and they wanted to make it up to him.
Shota pulls his pants up and throws the tshirt that he had been using to try to stop all the bleeding on his thigh to the side along with the small blade. His legs were still bleeding but he was wearing black pants so they wouldnt notice. He unlocks the door and all the members hear the click of the lock
"Shota!" Jongseob yells in a relieved voice as he runs in the room and hugs the boy
They had all shuffled in next to the boy and started kneeling infront of him and sitting next to him to hug him and comfort him
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as Intak lets go of the boy infront of him he looks to the side and sees a bloody t-shirt and a small shiny thing next to it. Intak was worried, who had started bleeding and what was the silver thing on the floor as he was trying to thing keeho had patted Soul's thigh telling him
"it will be ok" and "We love you"
but when he had done that Intak see's the boy infront of him flinch in pain. And then it clicked the blood was from Shota and the thing on the floor was a blade and as he looks up at Shota's eyes he is already met with a pair of eyes widened and staring right at Intak
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Shota sees it. He sees after he winces in pain the way that Intak had looked at him with horror then to the shirt and blade he should've hidden, because in all honesty he thought his members were to stupid to realize the shirt on the floor thrown to the side of him near his bed. He sees the way Intaks eyes follow back to Shota and look him in the eyes with complete horror and how he looks so afraid.
Great he's ruined it again...
his members are going to find out and leave him again he had thought. and that was the scariest thing to happen. So he gets up before anyone could do anything and tries to run but before he could run out the door someone grabs his wrist. he winces again and as he tries to make the person let go hes pulled into a hug
Intak lets go very slightly to look the younger boy in the eyes
"Shota. where?" Intak asks with a stern but sympathizing voice.
Shota hates this, he doesn't want anyone sympathizing for him and he doesn't want anyone to know either
"intak what are you doing? let go of him he looks like hes in pain" Jiung says trying to grab Intak
"No. Shota where are the cuts" Intak asks as he pushes Jiung off and lets go of Shota only to start grabing the boy infront of him and trying to pull up his sleeves
"n-NO L-LET GO INTAK..." Shota yels trying to get away then starts to break down even more "p-please."
"What.." Keeho asks with a horrifyied face "Shota tell me he's joking. tell me he's lying and that you arent-"
Soul couldn't stop crying at this point and then he feels arms stop trying to grab his sleeves from his hood and instead pull him into a hug and hears Intak whisper words into his ear
"Its going to be ok. Ik your in pain and im so sorry you we put you in such a dark place. I'm here now, and i wont let anything else happen ok.?"
