the two go outside and sit on the side walk at the side of the building
"so your not dating ni-ki?"
Soul just starts laughing
"no dumbass, did you really think i liked one of them or was dating one of them?" Soul laughs out
"i- um.. kinda?"
"do you actually like me or are you just playing with me.." soul asks this time with full seriousness
"what? i um-" "do you like me like that or?" Seob says
soul sighs "i do.. i have for a while. I kinda had a feeling you never did like me like that and thats why you avoided me, but i don't want my feeling to change our frienship. i never did, im sorry for making you uncomfortabl-"
"Shota you never made me uncomfy. And im sorry for ignoring you i never meant to do that, i truly didn't realize the others were too, not until you yelled at us.." Jongseob stops and starts again "And i do like you.. Actually I love you."
"that's why it bothered me so much when they called you baby or when Riki said you were his hyung and the way him and Sunoo connected to you.. I thought they both liked you, or one of them or both of them was dating you."
"Really?"
"yea.. kinda embarrising right?" Seob chuckles
"i think its kinda funny to be honest." Soul says with a smile as he grabs Jongseob's hand and puts it in his pocket. It was the end of fall and nearing winter, and starting to get colder out so honestly he thanked the weather for the hoodie season and making it the perfect time for hand holding
"So those three were really dating the whole time?"
"yea. they r perfect for eachother honestly. they fit eachother so well" soul smiles
"Now thinking about it they really do." Jongseob says "just like how we fit eachother but were to dumb to realize eachothers feelings" as he chuckles at the last bit
"can i ask you something" Soul asks
"hm?"
"Why did you ignore me? the others said they didn't realize the neglected me-." soul sighs "but for some reason it feels like there was another reason and even the way you said that sentence. saying how you dont know why 'they ignored me' did i do something wrong?"
Jongseob sighs truly feeling bad "No. you never did anything wrong. To be honest in my eyes you are truly the most perfect person ever to exsist."
Soul chuckles at that "Yea right. you literally just saw like one of the worst parts about me"
"But that was never your fault. it never was and never will be"
Soul looks down at his shoes and continues to listen
"Im sorry i hurt you. I ignored you but not because you did anything wrong. I truly dont know why the others neglected you. I didn't even realize they were neglecting you. But for me, to be honest i was just dealing with a lot and couldn't understand my feelings at that time."
Soul looks up and looks at Seob
jongseob look at the pebble on the floor as he keeps talking
"I honestly had no idea what I was supposed to do. I mean all those months ago I had no idea if I was even gay or not.. I mean I know I am now, but I knew I had started developing feelings for you, and I was terrified. Terrified I'd hurt you, terrified I'd ruin our friendship and so scared that you would never like me or look at me the same ever again. So I decided I would stop talking to you until I would stop having feelings for you. Then I realized how much I had hurt you and how my feeling was still not going away and I just felt so shitty for everything I did to you. You shouldn't have had to go through all of that. Let along alone"
Soul had laid his head on Jongseob's shoulder
"I got so jealous when Ehypen had gotten so close to you. The way they called you baby, Especially Sunghoon, Niki, and Sunoo. Or how They called you Angel, or how they all looked at you with complete love and admiration... Or that one time when you came home wearing Jungwon's clothes and completly smelt like him too. All of it hurt knowing that they all loved you so much and part of me thought you had started dating one of them. I thought i truly was never ever goiing to have a chance with you"
"Well i mean until Sunoo, Niki, and Sunghoon said they were dating and then Sunghoon started teasing me. It gave me slight hope." Jongseob say as he lays his head ontop of Soul's
"I would never hate you. To be honest I started liking you around a year ago, probably a bit more than a year, but still. I was also terrified.." Shota sighs while speaking
"to be honest, I thought you had found out about my feelings, that's why you started ignoring me. Then you said what you said earlier and i didn't know if I was just being delusional and stupid or if i actually heard that right" Soul says
Jongseob chuckles at the last part of what Soul says "You aren't delusional trust me, and again im truly sorry for hurting you for all those months. you didn't deserve the pain i put you through. I truly love you and I wont ever hurt you like I hurt you ever again."
"You promise?"
"i promise." Jongseob says as he squeezes Soul's hand "I'll even help you heal. Your no longer alone and I want to help you through everything"
Shota stays quiet. He believes Jongseob but everything that happened just gave the boy major trust issues, and he is truly scared that what if something happens and he's left alone again
"Don't let those thoughts get to you. I know your over thinking right now, and i dont want you to let your thoughts get to you. I love you Soulie and I want you to be with me whenever your ready."
"I- I love you too." Soul wasn't one to say I love you alot, he had a hard time saying the one sentence, and him saying that made him feel a weight be removed from him. He felt a bit better knowing that the boy he loves truly loves him back
"And I would like to be with you." Soul says with a small smile"
Jongseob then lifts his head and looks at Soul and Soul looks at him back
"Will you be my boyfriend then?"
Soul smiles and then speaks "Yes"
Jongseob then throws himself onto the boy in front of him and gives him a hug
"I love you so much, and I will do everything I can to make sure your happy and nothing hurts you again, and if anything or anyone ever does hurt you again. I will be there to pick you back up and be there for you every step of the way" Jongseob says with a smile
"I will make sure to help you and make you feel loved and happy aswell. I don't want you to feel alone again either" Soul says in the hug
