His smile (story #2)/Shim Jake/

Screaming and Ki-

I went upstairs to find I quiet place where there would be no one.

Tears were starting to flow down my cheeks when I found I room.

In that room there was a balcony. So, I went outside not bothering to lock the door of the room behind me.

I felt pathetic, I couldn't stop crying.

Of course, he didn't like me

"Who would like you!" I screamed out loud reliving the anger I had.

The mix of emotion I had where enough to destroy me mentally.

The only thing I wanted to do was to go home and cry in my room all night.

I was so deep in my thought that I didn't even realize someone came in until they were standing next to me handing me a box of tissues.

"Thank you" I said in between sobs.

"it's okay" a sweet masculine voice said.

I recognize that voice.

I slowly turn my head looking at the person next to me.

It really is him.

"Jake."

He stayed silent and only looked at me.

Honestly, it's better that way.

I like the silence.

We stayed like this for a while looking at the star not saying anything to each other.

When I finally started to feel better, I went inside the room leaving Jake alone on the balcony.

"Where are you going?" he asked

"You speak now?" I said teasing him a little bit.

"Summer, stop it." Jake said

"Stop what?" I asked really confused.

"Hurting yourself."

"I am not hurting myself."

"Yes, you are."

"What are you talking about Jake!" wait why am I screaming?

"You're hurting yourself, crying for someone like him!" he replied looking very angry

"Jake, this is none of your business!" WHY ARE WE SCREAMING?

"Ok, it might be none of my business, but I don't like seeing you like this summer!" He said getting closer to me.

"Why do you care, you hate me?"

"you really think I hate you?" Jake asked and we were suddenly inches apart.

Maybe it was the alcohol I took earlier or maybe because I was getting tired, but I couldn't stop starring.

His lips looked somehow attracting. He was leaning in, and I wasn't backing up.

"This is Jake" I thought, you hate him.

My brain was totally against the idea of kissing him but my heart,

only thought it was the right thing to do.

I am kissing Shim Jaeyun.

Kissing him feels nothing like kissing Sky.
it feels right.

It's slow and there's a lot of small pecks and longer kisses.

He is holding me by the waist pulling our body closer to each other.

It's like everything I needed.
The type of kiss I could dream of.

I shouldn't be enjoying it; I should be pushing him away screaming at him.

I don't stop. I can't stop.

The pain a was feeling earlier is still here, but with Jake's lips on mine, it hurt so much less

I don't want to stop, not now

Not when I need it.

Author note

I know, this is a lot, but I really wanted to show the difference between what she felt kissing Sky and kissing Jake. I didn't want to sexualize my story and I hope it doesn't give the wrong "vibe" I guess. In addition, I needed to describe a lot the kiss scene instead of just saying that they kissed. Hope you guys understand:)

Oh, and there's still a lot to come;)