Just Here For The Paycheck

Chapter 11 | It Hurts

(Before you start this I just wanted to tell you I edited the note he gave her from the last chapter, just letting you all know)

O P H E L I A

i woke up from the nap I didn't know I was in, confused, Grayson wasn't there playing with my hair nor did he have his hand on my leg, the warmth that he brought me wasn't there either, the only warmth I got was from the blanket I suppose he put on me before he dissappeared I tried calling him and his phone was out of signal
I walked to kitchen and found a note with his name on it
"Hey Ophelia since your reading this I suppose you woke up and I really I wasn't the one to wake you up, I know I might've said alot today and I'm sorry if that freaked you out but I do care about you, I don't know if it's the right thing for both of us right now and I think it's best to postpone whatever happened between us we both need a break from each other until we know what we want and need right now
I hope you understand where all this is coming from,
Sincerely Grayson Weber"

I didn't realize tears were falling until I saw a wet spot falling onto the paper
Then another came until the paper was filled with tear drops
"If he cares about me why is he ignoring me, fuck I should have never opened up and become vulnerable it's all my fault"
my thoughts come and go rapidly with tears in my eyes it really is my fault I let him in after everything that happened with me I should've known to never trust anyone I thought but this time no more tears fell which honestly felt worse because now it feels like I'm numb
whenever something happens I tend to think of ever bad thing that has ever happened to me so mainly that's why I keep such a strong persona so I can protect myself from all the thoughts that come when I let my guard down and that's what happened I let my guard down and now the only person I thought liked me for me leaves.

"So he took me to this sunset date on the roof of his apartment which he already planned because it looked just stunning we sat ate dinner HE GOT ME THE BOOK I ALWAYS WANTEDDDD then he took me on a drive in his motorcycle and when we......"
Coraline cam back from Alexander's excited to tell me everything but I couldn't foucs whatsoever and I'm guessing she noticed that
"Ophelia what's wrong your face is pale and you just nodded throughout the whole story"
"Oh nothing nothing I just zoned out, so sunset date huh that's amazing"
"What happened babe"
"I swear it's nothing"
"See that's how I know it's not nothing, have you been crying"
"Nooooo why would I"
I start trying to wip my eyes even though there were no tears but I was hoping the redness from earlier would go
She came around and hugged me tightly
"Grayson?"
When I heard his name all I could do was sob and sob, Coraline was there to hold me she didn't question anything she just let me get it all out.
After an hour had passed I pulled out the paper he wrote from my pocket to show it to her
"He left this after he acted so kind and so caring and so perfect but I should've known nothing is perfect"
"Baby no it's not your fault it's his, he chickened out and never got up and told you how he felt it's not your fault darling please stop crying"
"But it is it is my fault I let my guard down and now I think I'm in love with someone that doesn't think we're serious"
"Let it all out darling come on cry all you got I'm here for you"
I cried some more while trying to explain how I felt but I couldn't talk because of the tears that fell, Coraline was wearing her favorite jacket and while I was crying a dark spot formed on her chest area
"Nooooo cora I ruined your jacket I'm so sorry"
Now I start tearing up because I ruined her jacket, her favorite jacket
"Ophelia you didn't ruin it there just tears they'll dry out"
"So you don't hate me because I ruined your jacket"
Caroline chuckled and came to hug me,
she whispered
"You know that I'm here for you wether you like it or not"
"I know"I start to calm down and wipe my tears "and I love you for that"
"I love you too Lia so so so much"
"Couldn't there have been a guy version of you that would be perfect"I smiled
"I'm guessing there is"
"What do you mean cora?"
"Oh nothing just a figure of speech "

It's 5pm And I decide to go to the police department to get a bounty so I can get my mind off of today

"Hey Sarah, any bounties for the day?
"No I'm sorry L. Marshall isn't here so I don't know"
"It's fine, when they have something please let me know I need the money"
I lied I don't need the money I just need something to get everything off my mind

Coraline wanted us to go out which I refused but I did accept on taking a walk with her around the neighborhood.
We walked and laughed and felt like everything that happened dissappearr, after almost two hours of us walking Alexander called and said if he wanted to meet up with cora,
"Go go have fun you've been stuck with me from the moment you came home you should go and have fun"
"What about you I have to be here for you"
"Coraline I'm a big girl and ither way I need time alone so it's fine go have fun I want you to fall in love with him even more so I'll be the bridesmaid"
"Too early"we laughed
"We'll see"
"I love you tons liaa call me when you need anything okay luv youyyyyyy"
"Love you too byeee"
"Byeeeee"
She left and called Alexander for them to decide where they should go

After she left I start walking around on my own trying to clear my thoughts, I bought some coffee and I was listening to music when I spot someone getting robbed and held at gun point so I sneak up on them I pull out my dagger facing my back to the person that's getting robbed.
I stop infront of the robber, his face is masked up so I can't place any features on whoever is behind that black mask
"Aye, back the fuck off women"

His voice, it's familiar really really familiar

"You want to rob come on rob me"
"I swear I'll kill you girl"
I threw a dagger on his foot and yelled
"Don't you dare call me girl"
I got closer and got the dagger stained with blood out of his leg and came to his ear
"I hope this will teach you to keep your hands in your pockets and your tongue where it should be I don't think you would want to lose it do you?"
"No no please you're a monster fuck you"
"Go and don't let me see you robbing anyone not even an ant understood?"
He panics and runs while limping on the leg I stabbed
I feel proud
I turned and see that Grayson is the guy who's getting robbed I freeze in my tracks as I look in surprise
"You know I could've scared him away I know how to handle pricks like him"
"Bye Grayson"
"No no scary lady please we need to talk"
"Really?you think so?well good job that's one thing your committed to bravo, round of applause, and please stop calling me that it hurts"
"Please let me explain, wait did you just say it hurts?"
"Yeah Grayson it does it really does to have a connection like we did back at my place so yes it does hurt, it hurts so much because for a moment just for a minute I thought for once in my life someone looked my way and cared about me the way I cared about them and the one person I fall in love with leaves because he's too scared.
so tell me would it hurt"

I cried and cried while I yelling telling him everything weighing my heart down, even though I didn't want him to know anything, it's too early but my emotions took a hold of me

He stands there stunned by what I said, by my tears, by my anger, my pain and my sadness
"You love me?"
"I never loved one like you I know I shouldn't but I do god damn it I do I love you, I love you but I hate you and I shouldn't love you but my hearts beats for you so I hope your happy about that"
My voice cracks just at the end, my eyes are red I'm all red but this not it's not because I'm blushing it's because I've never felt this feeling before, I went through more hard shit but nothing like this

"Ophelia?"
"What?what more can you add to this you hurt me you hurt me good"
"I love you too and I always did I knew you were mine the moment we met in the coffee shop"

WHAT?he loves me?

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HEYYYYYYYYYYYY
Juliette with youuuuuuu

Being this close to the characters made me tear up writing thissss even though I know exactly how this ends with them:)

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