Forever his Darling ; Y/n x Mattheo

ten - Mattheo

i woke up the next morning with a raging headache.

it took me a few minutes to process what happened.

i remembered parts of last night.

i remember sleeping with daphne and fighting with Theo.

i sat up in bed and saw everyone else asleep.

i checked the clock.

6am.

it was a Saturday so most people would be in bed.

i laid back down and tried to go back to sleep but i couldn't.

all i could think about was what i was going to tell y/n.

i had really fucked up.

she would never forgive me.

that's who she is.

i told her not to worry about daphne and here i was thinking of ways to tell her i cheated with her.

i must've been insanely drunk to do that.

what on earth was i thinking!?

i could never love anyone the way i love y/n.

i laid in bed for a few more hours until the others began to wake up.

Enzo was first.

He looked at me but didn't say anything.

he, draco and blaise had walked in during mine and theo's argument.

they probably hated me.

i wouldn't be surprised.

what i did was shitty.

Enzo went into the bathroom still not saying anything.

i decided to get up and get ready for the day.

i got dressed just as Draco and Theo woke up.

neither of them spoke either.

they just joined Enzo in the bathroom.

i walked in to brush my teeth and all 3 of them walked out.

i sighed and got ready.

when i was done none of them were in their.

not even blaise.

i wasn't entirely surprised.

i decided to head down to breakfast.

i walked into the great hall and saw her sitting with them.

she looked upset.

i wanted to know how much she knew.

i approached the table.

"what are you doing here?" she asked turning to look at me.

"i'm sorry..." was all i managed to say as i felt my throat dry out.

she shook her head.

and turned back round.

i placed my hand on her shoulder.

"get off me!" she yelled shoving my hand off.

"it was a mistake..." i said

"a mistake?!" she yelled again tears forming in her eyes.

"what we're you trying to do? resuscitate her?!" she added

i looked at her as i swallowed hard.

"you cheated with daphne!" she exclaimed

"i don't know what you want me to say..." i answered

"i don't want you to say anything, im going to leave" she said getting up.

"wait please..."i croaked

"why!?" she turned round angrily

"i want to talk.." i replied

"there's nothing to talk about. you cheated. you lied. we're over" she said harshly

i could tell she was really hurting but i was too.

i had caused my own pain.

i knew i deserved this.

"i'm sorry okay. i'm sorry. i am so disgusted and ashamed with myself" i answered

"she means nothing to me" i added

"how can you say that? you told me not to worry about her but yet here we are" she replied

"i know" i said

"what would you do if things were reversed?" she asked

"what..." i said

"would you forgive me? you'd be okay if someone else had kissed me, held me touched me? made love to me?" she questioned

"i would have been heart broken but i would want to work things out" i replied

she shook her head.

"no you wouldn't.." she answered

she turned to walk away again but paused.

i watched her do the one thing i least expected.

she took off the necklace.

she walked back over placed it into my hand before walking off again.

I knew i had lost her for good this time.

i also knew i deserved it.

i caused this.

if there was anything i could do to go back i would.

i still fucking love her with all my heart.

everything Theo ever said was true.

she was my happiness. my only love. my world. she was my reason for living.

now that she was gone i had no clue what i was going to do.

i turned to my friends who were watching my every move.

"you really fucked up man" Enzo commented

"i know i did" i replied with a sad face.

i needed my friends right now.

i knew they knew that.

i guess that's why blaise moved over on the bench for me to sit down.

pansy scoffed and left as i sat down.

she clearly was still mad.

i didn't blame her.

she had gotten close to y/n over the last month so i understood.