𝙈𝘼𝙎𝙌𝙐𝙀𝙍𝘼𝘿𝙀 - Simon Riley x reader

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ʷᵃʳⁿⁱⁿᵍˢ : ˢʷᵉᵃʳⁱⁿᵍ

It's been a day since me and ghosts "shower". He still doesn't talk to me during work or field hours but I guess it's fine.

I keep forgetting we share a room.

This morning I woke up to him gone, which this time, it's not a shocker. Well I mean I'm not shocked at least.

There wasn't a second of regret in my mind though.

Once I got up and did what I needed to do I put my mask and jacket on and walked to the gym. Squads were training for their next mission in the barrack hallways. It sounded like there was going to be a war.

I walk into the gym and see soap and ghost arguing like fucking

" Oh shut the hell up. Johnny, don't act like you know. Everything!" Ghost yells, I just stand and watch

What are they talking about?

I stood and watch them argued for just a little longer

I don't think they realized I was there, so I just walked to the lockers to get my gym stuff out. My water bottle had left over water from yesterday

Gross.

As I scramble through my things, my keys fell onto the concrete.

That got their attention.

Ghost eyes quickly glanced over and so did Johnny

I'm screwed . I know they were talking about me, and I know I should have just waited

Ghost and Johnny stared at me for a moment before quickly turning back to each other.

" Like you know her so well? God, this is why I'm saying you and her won't work out. " He whispers I'm not too sure what they are saying

But it's guaranteed about me
There's this tiny feeling in my chest that's making me forget how to breathe.

Is this anxiety?

I wonder what they were saying about me before I came in.

Is ghost saying bad stuff about me?

What if Johnny saying stuff about me that I don't know about?

I feel like I'm just overthinking this but it's really getting to my head.

My chest is pounding and I can feel my hands beginning to shake and my ears getting warm.

Uh-oh this isn't good.

My breathing gets more intense by the second.

I see Johnny and ghost still whispering but I don't say anything about it.

Fuck this is bad.

I know I should probably talk to ghost about what happened but what if he doesn't want to talk about it?

There's so much going on in my head and I know I'm wrong for thinking like this but what if we aren't a good relationship?

What if he's not right for me?

I've heard some stories about how he would sleep with some of the barrack bunnies.. That's just a rumor right?

I mean ghost of all people sleeping with barrack bunnies? Sounds like a big load of bullshit to me.

As my hands begin to shake I fidget with my fingers, popping them then my neck. It's just something I do to ease my anxiety.

Suddenly a large ringing attends my ears.

" Ah shit.. what the hell?"
I cover one of my ears God why is it so loud?

"Y/n?? Are you okay? What's going on? " Johnny asks and walks up to me, clearly just dismissed this argument that they were having.

" I'm fine... Just a little light-headed.."
I say with a sigh

Johnny sand is slowly set on my shoulder which helps me calm down just a little

" I'm sorry... I didn't mean to interrupt your... Argument. " My voice is shaky and weak

I look over in seacoast leaning against the wall with his arms crossed and one leg crossed over the other. His glare felt like needles digging into my back. When will this treatment end?

" What" Johnny's eyebrows furrowed as if he was comfued.

I took a deep breath in and out. " Nothing." I shut my locker with aggression and walked out of the gym. Gym why does he always have to act so goddamn clueless like a lost puppy?

as im walking out of the gym i walk past those same squads training , now they are walking up and down the halls in lines no one could break.

my fists slightly clench before i hear my name being called from behind me.

i turn around and see alejandro running up to me.

fuck , this isnt good..

"y/n ! hermosa, where were you last night? i waited but you never came? did i go to the wrong place??" he asked, with no hint of aggression or anger, he honestly was just worried about me and where i was .

"oh uhm.. hey. im sorry, ghost called me in for a meeting and i wasnt able to make it.. " i say, rubbing my head awkwardly.

"oh??" he looked at me with a hint of confussion, but sadness.

"i.. uhm.. also didnt think it was a good idea anyways.. we could get fired for even going on a date.." i whispered. i wasnt lying, but jesus if someone caught me and ghost, wed probably get more then being fired.

"oh no it's okay bonita . I understand completely."
He says a little disappointed.

Fuck I feel so bad, but at the same time, not to much.

"Well uhm.. hey I was just about to go take a shower so I'll catch you later.."
I say trying to get out of the situation.

"Oh uhm.. right. We'll have a nice day Hermosa." He says with a smile, but you can clearly see he's upset.

Fuck.. now I just have to pray he doesn't find out I ditched him for Simon.

As I watch him walk away I turn around and continue walking to my room. I'm still fucking upset.

I don't understand what's going on and I wish someone, anyone, would tell me what the hell is happening around here.

I arrive at my barrack and get into my room and slam the door. Fuckin hell , where and when will I get any sort of stress relief here.

I guess this is what I get for joining special forces.

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𝐬𝐦𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞;

ᵖˡᵉᵃˢᵉ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ⁿᵉˣᵗ ᶜʰᵃᵖᵗᵉʳ

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