I don't even know if I'm fully over M (Bc I was the one being broken up with not the other way around), but I want to be a supportive friend.
And another character comes into play (her name is bitch ass hoe -or bah- because it describes her EXTREMELY accurately). So basically, bah has always been a bitch, and I've had many bad occurrences with her. But this time made me so fucking mad
Here's the gist-
M doesn't have a phone and we were still dating that this point, so he texts me from bah's phone saying we should break up. I was confused but I accepted it, even though the reasons were bs.
(Also I should mention that I wasn't at school the day this happened, I was at a DANCE COMPETITION FOR FUCKS SAKE)
So, to make matters worse, bah decided to read out all the messages from myself and M on her phone TO THE ENTIRE FUCKING MATH CLASS. (I may include a video at the end idk) luckily my friend (Sh) actually took a video of her reading them.
And so once I got back to school from the dance competition, (mind you I was dying inside and pretty much heartbroken) M and bah were all over each other and they were wearing each others hoodies, whatever.
(The next thing I haven't admitted to almost anyone, so I may explain this strangely, sorry in advance)
Here's a dream I had midsummer:
So we were in a classroom, our ELA teacher (Ms Bitch cuz everyone hated her) was in there supervising us doing an assignment. M and bah sat next to each other from the assigned seating, and they both finished at the same time.
"Okay thanks, you guys can go to the shop when you're done." Ms Bitch (roughly, again this was a few months ago so I don't fully remember) said to the class. We agreed, then a few seconds after that I finished. So I went up to her, turned in my paper, grabbed my stuff and went to the shop.
(The shop is like a quarter mile away from the school for context)
So I went down to the shop, and once I got there, I saw M and bah sitting next to each other on this swing/chair/bench whatever thingy. I honestly felt sort of jealous..? Idk, but then I looked closely and I saw that they were holding hands and cuddling and shit. I knew then that I was definitely jealous, because I still wasn't fully over him. But they looked at me and they said "don't tell anyone, we're not public yet" and my heart dropped.
I just silently nodded Bc I didn't know what else to do, so I just stood there. Then bah said "hey let's all go into the shop" so I just followed cuz I had no better things to do.
Once we got inside I noticed that the employees were there for whatever reason (nightmare magic ig) and so M and bah went up to the second floor hand in hand. They got up there and there's just a lot of empty space, so bah gets out her phone and starts playing slow romantic music like "Perfect" by Ed Sheeran and stuff. Then she and M started dancing together, while I just sat on the side trying my best not to break down.
I couldn't hold it in much longer at this point, so I just went to the bathroom for a minute. I cried my eyes out in there and I didn't know what to do, so I just got myself together again, and went back upstairs.
Once I got up there though, I only saw M's back almost against the wall. Then I looked closer and saw bah pinned up against the wall. They were making out or smt, and i felt my heart sink to the deepest depths of my chest at this point.
Then I think bah noticed that I was back, and she broke off from M, "you won't tell anyone right?" I just held up a shaky thumbs up. I didn't know what to say to that, and I couldn't form any words without sobbing.
Then they just continued their dancing and M was lifting bah up and stuff, twirling her and dipping her, the whole shabang.
I just stood there in disbelief, wondering how he moved on so easily while I was here almost crying. Then I checked my phone and realized that school was officially out for the day, so I just left the shop and started home, sobbing the whole way.
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But yeah, basically, I don't know what to do with S about M, she plans on telling M tmrw, but I don't want her to get hurt...
Sorry this was really long and I was ranting, I just needed to get this off my chest </3
(Here's a picture of some messages that were some of the reasons we broke up)
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