Thing had gotten better for Clara recently, she had been sleeping with sully on the regular, she had been calling her brothers from the prison again and she just generally felt better about herself. she had also grown a stronger bond with the other two boys, she really saw Dris as like an older brother and Dushane just acted like he was her dad or something, which was a little weird to her since she had always grown up without one. currently, her favorite thing was when her and sully went on late night drives after sex, it was so relaxing and the mod was always so good. they always laughed and just was able to talk to each other whenever they went on these car rides, everything just felt so light hearted for once it her life. And again, for once in her life in a very long time, she didn't need to assistance of weed to make herself happy.
A small sigh left her mouth, but for the first time ever, it wasn't because she was tired, or sad, or even angry, she let out a happy and satisfied sigh. she held back a smile when she felt sully's free hand grip her thigh, just resting there like it was normal. she looked out the window and put her hand over his, feeling him tense up a little bit before relaxing again, his warm fingers warming the space on her thigh. she glanced over at him, he had his jaw clenched and his hand gripping the top of the steering wheel with small amounts of rage when someone pulled out in front of him.
Clara hadn't realized she had been staring until her brown eyes met his emerald greens. ah yes, his emerald greens, the first thing she thought when she first saw him, the first thing she noticed, the eyes she could and would stare into all day. the eyes that stared at her with anger the first time they met, or the eyes that stared at her with lust the other night in bed, or maybe the eyes that were staring at her now with happiness.
"what?" he hummed and she simply just smiled and gently shook her head to brush off the question. he chuckled a bit and let his eyes return to the road so they wouldn't crash. They were currently on the drive over to Dushane's house, Clara had noticed him and sully had been arguing a little more recently, and she wanted them to bond again, they were brothers after all. Dris was going too, along with a boy she had never met before called Tareek, he sounded nice from some of the stories she had heard. she had been to Dushane's house a few times now, it was massive, she didn't know when he had bought it but she also didn't really care because it was fucking amazing to even be in.
They pulled up in front of a random house that was around a few houses down from where Dushane's was, they had some weird rule to never pull up outside the actual house incase someone's watching or something. she clicked her seatbelt off and pushed her door open as she stepped out of the car. she waited for sully to come round onto the path, walking side to side with him. she took his hand into hers and interlocked their fingers, surprised when sully didn't pull away but merely squeezed her hand and held back a smile. Clara felt she had completed some sort of mission but holding his hand and making him smile. they walked onto the drive and over to the door, sully pulling a key out of his pocket and unlocking the door. Clara wasn't surprised that sully had a key to Dushane's house, they were close, like they would trust each other with their lives.
The two of them walked into the house and sully let go of her hand to greet the rest of them, pulling Dushane into a brotherly hug, doing the same with Dris and dapping the other boy who she assumed was Tareek up. she glanced over to the sofa to see a small girl sat there, she looked like a teenager, she looked sweet. Clara wasn't good at making friends, she wasn't good at socializing and getting to know people so she just awkwardly smiled at the girl and boy she had never met.
"wagwan Clar, you good yeah?" Dushane asked as he side hugged her, smiling and sitting down on the sofa. she nodded slowly and looked at Dris who looked upset. she frowned, he was sat away from everyone in the kitchen. she sighed and walked into the kitchen where he was, smiling at him and sitting down on the counter in front of him. she reached out to push his head slightly, making him smile ever so slightly, shaking his head and pushing her hand away playfully.
"hi Dris, you okay?" she asked quietly so the rest wouldn't hear. he sighed and shook his head, putting his head into his hands as if he felt bad, guilty, muttering to himself, nothing she could make out as actual English though. she frowned even more and lifted his head up so she could look at him, cocking her head to the side curiously.
"its Erin man, i feel like i aint spending enough time on her yknow? feel like some next up shit fucking dad." Clara had to say that she felt her heart shatter hearing him say that, in her opinion, actually, in her facts, she knew he was a great dad, and he spent more than enough time with her. he always brought her out everywhere he went unless it was dangerous or him and his bros time. she scoffed and jumped off the counter, pulling him into a tight hug and rubbing the back of his neck as he rested his head on her shoulder.
"you're an amazing dad Dris, better than anyone could ask for." she whispered and felt Dris wrap his arms around her and hug her tightly, as if he had needed a hug for a long time. she knew it was hard for him with his misses being in prison and having to raise his baby girl all on his own. he sighed shakily and she couldn't help but feel bad, like she could do more to help him. He was the first to let go, so she pulled away and gave him a small smile, taking hold of his wrist to drag him to where the rest were. she looked at all of them sat on the sofa, just talking and shook her head, running into all the bedrooms to grab all the blankets and pillows.
she threw them on the floor in front of the sofa and watched the confused faces on all of them beside the girl who stood up and helped her. Clara grabbed sully by his hand to pull him off the couch where they started stacking the pillows, making a fort. she smiled happily and looked at the girl, spudding her before they laughed slightly at the boys faces.
"what the fuck?" Dushane exclaimed at all of his blankets and pillows suddenly in his living room. Chantelle giggled and sat inside the fort, grabbing a pillow and putting it behind her head before wrapping herself up in a blanket. Clara grinned at Sully who was stood there with the most puzzled face ever, she smiled and grabbed both of his hands, leaning up to press a quick kiss to his lips before forcing him inside the fort. To all their surprises, Tareek had gotten in the fort a long time ago, sat next to Chantelle as they fought over the blanket. Dushane lofted one of the blankets to get in, sitting down.
"its a fort, you've never made one?" Clara spoke up, watching them shake their heads before Dris walked in and sat in the free corner, grabbing a pillow and putting it behind his head.
"Erin makes them sometimes when she wants to watch cartoons." he shrugged and Clara smiled at him before settling into sully's lap who wrapped his arms round her waist, resting his head on her back with a small, happy and relaxed sigh. Tareek grabbed the remote to the TV and switched it on, putting the princess and the frog on. Everyone turned to look at him with a weird look. he blinked slowly and looked back at everyone who was now on the verge of bursting out laughing.
"what fam? its a good movies, Tiana's leng." he spoke, genuine in his voice and very truthful to his words. Sully was the first to laugh, covering his mouth as he put his head back, then everyone was quick to join. Clara was first to stop, looking around at everyone still laughing and talking, then her stomach sank with some realization than she wanted to have at the moment, and even though her stomach sank, her heart felt happy, and a smile was planted on her lips. she was somebody.
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sorry it took so long guys, ive been so tired lately and js not had the motivation, promise i will try get more updates out tmmr for you all. love you guys so much and thank you for all the love youre giving. opinions on thus chapter? vote and comment and happy reading.
