In this book Brianna attempts to understand her intense and at times contradicting feelings, while falling in love and searching for her purpose.
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I want to believe I'm stronger than I give myself credit for, but I can't be sure. I go from one mood to another without warning. It's not something I can control. When it happens, I feel like I'm not a real person like I've never been a real person. I often feel no connection to who I am or who I've known. It makes me think none of my choices matter. I act drastically so that anything will happen, and I will feel alive again. The unpleasant thing about being reminded of your humanity is that all the pain comes rushing back. I panic in those moments and it's like I had just been asleep the whole time. I feel trapped in the sleep phases like there's somebody else operating the body I live in. When I'm awake I feel out of control and like I'm going to combust from all the pressure. I think that maybe nothing can "fix me." I just don't want to be here anymore.
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PoetryNobody prepares you for the confusing struggle of parting ways with who you once were. If you're stubborn like me you'll try and fight it only to realize that you can't hold on to the broken girl that you once were if want to become a strong woman...
