She's standing under a shower still clothed but the fabric stuck to her skin. It makes the outline of her curves more visible, her boobs, her waist, her ass. As she archs her neck with her eyes closed and slides a hand above her chest. God she looks so hot. He thinks it should be a crime to look that hot. Like he's not insanely hot himself.
Right before he could reach his high, the dream ended. The image of Rae faded from behind his eyes. He woke up panting and sat up with a ruined orgasm. Only if it lasted just a few seconds longer he could've finally come after what feels like an eternity.
All covered in sweat, he throws the covers away from his body and runs to the bathroom to get himself under the shower as quick as possible. He needs to wash everything away. The thought of her from his mind, his arousal from that thought.
As good as it felt in the moment, he's a married man now. He can't get a wet dream about his friend or co-worker while sleeping next to his pregnant wife. He feels awful, like a piece of crap.
He remembers the conversation they had which had his brain making up scenarios.
"So you're married and sex deprived. Not a cool combo" Rae comments. Doesn't cares how shitty it sounds he's done worse things.
"It's not safe" he answers.
"Well then just wank" She shrugs her shoulders. As if it's just a casual conversation two co-workers can have.
"Not as skilled in that area. Look we both know we were pretty young when we started having sex so it takes much more for me to get off. Habits." He says. Purses his lips after saying but feels lighter after he shares.
"There are other ways." Rae says in a hushed tone.
"I asked but she wasn't exactly... I mean just not happening... I haven't had to deal with things like this ever before... abstinence isn't for me." He sat down on a chair and she sat down in front of him.
"You did survive the two months when we dated but didn't shag" she snorts.
"That's ancient history" he chuckles.
"Your vocabulary is still weak Jeon. Ancient history would be at least two hundred years ago. 'Us' was only like three years ago" she emphasises on the Us, she wants him to know it was like that for her.
"We were just friends" He jokes like old times.
"Fuck off" Rae answers. Means it. Doesn't likes that joke that much anymore.
She doesn't wishes to impact his present life in any way but wants him to know he's her past, will always be.
"And well I did try to lay with you. You called it off right at the moment."
"Seriously... What was I supposed to do?" Rae stands up from the chair and stands in front of him.
"But why? I told you it wasn't just casual" He looks up at her brows pinched together as he watches the hurtful look on her face.
