She drives me insane. I love her, so much, but she doesn't think things through. She talks about a big family and a forever but there can't be a forever if she's acting like this. I can't continue with this if she doesn't consider other peoples emot...
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❤️782K @ynhill : Kaiya Wanda Romanoff-Hill 🤍
Exactly two years ago today I gave birth to my three youngest babies, Daniel Clint, Kaiya Wanda and Peter James. I also suffered one of the biggest losses in my life and I began experiencing a pain that no parent could ever imagine. I spent months in bed and pushed away everyone, it wasn't until I started going to group therapy that I really started to accept the loss of my youngest daughter. I guess what I'm trying to say is that you're not alone and that someone out there is willing to listen. There is no shame in going to therapy and you're allowed to live your life for them 🤍
YOUR POV
It's been a lot the last two years. Raising 4 children whilst grieving is fucking difficult. It doesn't help that Natasha hasn't gotten any help, she made sure I was getting help but refused to get help herself. We argue over that quite a lot but today has to be a good day, it's Danny, Kaiya and PJ's birthday.
- Ivy : Mommy, can I go see Talya now?
- y/n : Let me just get the boy's shoes on, go help Charlie in the car
- Natasha : One clean Danny
- Ivy : Mama, can I sleep at Auntie Wanda's?
- Natasha : Not tonight princess, we're going to have a family dinner, remember?
- Ivy : Oh yeah
- Charlie : Let's go Vee
- y/n : Can you go help them into the car? I'll get Danny and PJ's shoes on
- Natasha : Okay detka
We're travelling to visit Clint and Laura tomorrow and we won't be back until after Christmas. We've had all our christmas presents for the kids delivered there and then we have like 4 days to wrap everything.
- y/n : Sit still for Mommy Danny
- Daniel : I want Uncle PeePee
- y/n : We can't keep calling Uncle Pietro Uncle PeePee. We'll see Uncle Pietro when we go to Auntie Wanda's
- PJ : And Uncle Tony?
- y/n : Maybe after lunch bud. We've got to go give Uncle Tony and Pepper the spare diapers you two grew out of
- Charlie : I want to see Uncle Bucky
- y/n : Uncle Bucky, Steve and Maggie are staying in London for Christmas Cece, we'll see him later, yeah?
Maggie, or Margaret as Steve calls her, is Steve and Bucky's adopted daughter. Honestly she's the spitting image of Steve even though that isn't possible.
- Maria : Hey, Nat said you're going out?
- y/n : Yeah. We promised the boys they could have a Mommy-Mama day with just them. The girls are staying with Wanda and then we're off to Clint's tomorrow
- Maria : You're not here for Christmas?
- y/n : I'm sorry Ria. We were going to do it a couple of years ago but we couldn't
- Maria : We've never spent a Christmas apart
- y/n : We'll spend next Christmas here, I promise
- Maria : No, that's not fair. You're my sister. I want to see you on Christmas
- y/n : Ria-
- Maria : No. I don't care. These are for the boys, that's for you and Nat. Bye
- y/n : Ria, don't be like that. Maria stop walking away
- Maria : No. I just wanted to spend Christmas with my family but you're leaving to go see Clint
- y/n : Come with us, I'm sure he won't mind
- Maria : I can't leave Nick
- y/n : Both come. Drive up there whenever you're ready and we'll all spend Christmas together. Me and Laura are cooking so I don't mind making a little extra
I think it will be really cool.
- Maria : Mhm. Maybe
- y/n : I'll see you there Ria
- Maria : Mhm. Happy Birthday boys
- PJ : We go now?
- y/n : Yeah, let's get you buckled in
The people carrier works for us, the girls are in the back and the boys are in the middle because they're still rear facing and it's easier to get them in that way.
- Radio Presenter 1: And todays top hits are-
- Radio Presenter 2 : What's happening? What the hell
- Charlie : Mommy, somethings wrong with PJ and DanDan
- Radio Presenter 2 : My co-host has just turned to dust in front of my eyes. What the hell is happening?
- y/n : Tasha pull over
- Natasha : PJ, is everything okay?
- PJ : Mama
- y/n : What's wrong boys? Ivy, what's happening?
- Ivy : Danny and PJ are disappearing Mommy. What do we do Mama?
- Natasha : Stay calm princess. You're doing so well for keeping an eye of them for Mommy and Mama
- y/n : Natasha
- PJ : MOMMY
- Daniel : MAMA
What the fuck is happening?
- y/n : Where are the boys?
- Ivy : Mommy, they disappeared
- y/n: Where did they go Ives?
- Ivy : Into dust
- Natasha : Fuck
- Charlie : Mama, bad word
Where the fuck are my boys? I can't lose them on top of Kaiya.
- y/n : Natasha
- Natasha : I have no clue what's happened but I'm going to do whatever I need to get our boys back
I need my kids, all of them.
Authors Note Officially in mourning over Natasha and Tony. Have a drink and a snack please
