Synesthesia

Chapter XVIII

Ang buong akala ko days will get better habang tumatagal ako sa corporate work ko pero mukhang kabaliktaran ang mga  nangyayari. The work is getting so much harder and I'm questioning myself again if I can really do this? Ilang beses na ding sumasagi sa isip ko ang offer ni Wesley. 

We getting married means I will be out of this responsibility and for him, his parents will not go divorce. It's a win for both of us so bakit hindi na lang ako pumayag? I hope it's that easy.

I sighed, looking at the papers that I have to finished within this day. This is not the life that I wanted, it sucks that every time I wake up I have to remind myself na I'm doing the right thing even though I know this is not meant for me. I'm being an expert on gaslighting myself habang tumatagal and I hate it. I don't want to come to the point na naglolokohan na lang kami ng sarili ko or I'm already on that point? Oh gosh. I need to stop overthinking.

I was in the middle of analyzing one of the company's financial balance sheet when my phone beeped. My eyes lit up when I saw Wesley's name. Well, in the brighter side naman. Because of work stuff me and Wesley got closer to each other because I asked for his help a lot.

"Are you done with your work? Let's have lunch."

Wesley is treating me lunch everyday and I consider it one of the best part of my day because people see us together. All the girls that like him are loosing hope and I don't even know why it makes me happy. Dati ayaw na ayaw kong may nakakakita sa aming being together. So weird.

After I finished three more files I started retouching my make up. I'm wearing a pink floral dress today that matches my pink coat and pink stiletto. I feel duper extra pretty today. 

I was walking my way towards the elevator when I saw Ace inside. Nagmamadali akong pumasok do'n bago magsara ang elevator. Ngayon ko na lang ulit siya nakita. Since me and Wes started hanging out sobrang dalang ko na lang makita si Ace. He's so busy din siguro.

"Pink na pink ah." He commented. He's wearing an all grey suit. A very typical Ace Madrigal corporate fits. He looks dashing as always. No wonder every girl in the company admires him. Well, kahit ako din naman talagang nagka-crush sa kan'ya pero it's short live as it should bem, crush nga eh. "Parang 'di ka pa sanay. Kailan ba ako hindi nagsuot ng pink?"

"Suits you very well." He said with a small smile. I returned his smile. He immediately tore his eyes off me na pinagtaka ko. Okay, what's wrong with him? I don't see the bubbly Ace right now.

"I know right. Anyway, are you having lunch? Ngayon na lang ulit kita nakita ah. Busy?" 

"Kind of. And yes, I'm planning to have lunch outside. Purga na ako sa pagkain sa cafeteria."

"No way, you're eating there, Mr. CPA. Sabay ka nasa amin ni Wesley?"

He got silent for a moment. "Are you and Wesley going out again?" Nagulat ako sa tanong niya. I was about to answer when the elevator dings and people got inside. I move closer to Ace, tying to continue our conversation but he's avoiding my gaze. Teka, why would he ask that and what should I answer? What does he mean by 'again'? Does he know anything about our past? I'm confuse.

Three more floors and we good to go. I was about to talk to him nang mapansin kong he's talking with someone on his phone. Sumenyas siya sa akin na mauna na siya and I nodded as an answer. I think it's urgent kasi he looks nagmamadali. Okay lang, may next time pa naman. I might ask him to have lunch date with me next week. Sakto namang paglabas ko ng elevator ay nando'n si Wes. Nagkasalubong sila ni Ace but I'm not sure if they acknowledge each other.

I smiled at Wes when our eyes met. He did not return it and looks like he's in his serious mood right now. What's with people and why are they so serious today? Did I missed something? Nasa kotse na niya kami, I'm in the passenger's seat and he's in the driver's seat. I'm busy admiring myself from the mirror while he's so serious while driving.