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Went to school
Watched tinkerbell and the secret treasure
Or sumthn like that
Vombix bought halloween member night tickets for us
Where we gonna watch fnaf the movie
Im so happy
But mother wasnt happy with it
Since its not in the usual cinema we go to
Its somewhere else
And it starts at 21 and ends at 23
So shes not happy about it
Which makes me stressed bc i dont like doing things my mom doesnt like
It makes me scared
And then my biological dad send me a picture of himself
He looks like a sausage
So ugly
And then i started bawling my eyes out
I never cried over him like this. It was always bc mom and him were fighting or something along those lines.
But when i saw him, it made me feel like i was missing him
I hate it
I dont wanna miss him
He was a terrible father
I hate him
But i miss him so much
I hate that
Why do i feel like this
I shouldnt feel like this over him
I cant hold back my tears
I hate this so much
I thought about blocking him
But i just cant do it
I'm so fucking weak
I dont even wanna think of him and yet here i am worrying that if i block him, that I'll hurt his feelings
I should hurt his feelings
I shouldn't even care about this
But i do
I hate it
So much
My head hurts now
Im a bit calmer
I hope i never feel like that ever again
I also hope my mom stops being angry about the fnaf thing
I really wanna go
But if she keeps being angry about it
Its gonna ruin the entire thing no matter how cool it is
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