SOULMATE - [정원]

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Jayeon's pov:

His dark brown eyes. How could they shine so brighty when they're dark? His dimples everytime he laughs, gosh how i love it when he laughs. I just hope i could be the one making im laugh one time.

He's standing in front of me so close but at the same time we're so far away from each other. How can't he see me in this small group?

"Yeon, are you listening?" Minji asked me, bringing me back to reality, back on my seat in the middle of the cafeteria of our school. As i took a look around, i saw several students crowding themselves at the counter to buy some food.

"Oh yeah sure" I raised my eyebrows at my best friend who just widened her eyes at me.
I couldn't look in her eyes clearly. Right next to her gaze there was someone else catching my attention. He didn't saw me considering his eyes luckily. It must have been embarassing for me.

"So what do you think of our idea for the graduation party?"
I raised my brows again confused, looking back at Minji who sat right across me, letting a small smile appear at her face just as if sh eknew i wasn't paying attention at all before.

"Graduation party? Doesn't it take another 8 months until then?" I looked at Sunghoon who just sat on the seat on my left side. His right corner of his mouth slowly cursed into a smal as he turned his gaze towards Jungwon who now looked in Jayeon's eyes, about to start speaking.

"Yeah, it's still pretty far away but despite it, we thought about throwing a big party after the ceremony with some firekworks. Actually we already discussed that, you're really a day dreamer, yeon"
Jungwon was looking deeply in my eyes. I would have liked him calling me yeon more if all my other friends being part in our friend group wouldn't call me like that too.
It would probably more special if he would be the only one calling me by my nickname. But i guess that's just too special.

"Oh yeah sure that sounds good"
I said to my friends, holding thumbs up. I really liked the idea even though my emotions could seem pretty bored or cold.
I was just hiding mu emotions, that's my secret.

When we looked up, by the way our friend group was about 11 people, to the clock as we heard the bell ringing, Minji opened her mouth to speak again.

"Class stars again. What do you guys have now?"
The boy raised his eyebrows, earning several answers just not from me.

"Yeon, what do you have now?"

"Uhm history I guess"
I looked at him surprised as a smile appeared on his face.

"Oh, Ji and me too. Let's go together"

Oh no. Please let's not be that again. I don't want to watch them holding hands in front of me. You guys just make it harder for me like that. I just want to loose theses feelings for you, I would never hurt Minji.
I'm already selfish through liking you but I can't change it, no matter what I do...