who will fix me now? dive in when i'm down
save me from myself
don't let me drown
-Drown- Bring me the horizon
(5 seconds of summer cover)
"harry love wake up i made breakfast"
i opened my eyes to see louis smiling down at me and gave him a sad smile in return.
i wish i could just stay asleep. where everything is better there's nobody saying how fat and ugly and worthless i am, even if it's usually just myself. its just dreams that mean nothing. usually it's louis and i having a perfect day or something along those lines, but then when i wake up im miserable.
"harry love are you coming"
"yeah sorry"
i walked downstairs to the smell of waffles
"louis" i said a smile forming on my face. he knows this is my favourite
"we're gonna make today a good day, starting with your favorite breakfast alright?"
i nodded
.
when i got a spare moment from the constant chatting with louis everything hit me. the emotions i had been pushing to the back of my mind came rushing forwards and i threw my head into my hands
hands rubbed on my back "it's okay harry"
"it's not" my voice broke and tears fell from my eyes "i hate feeling like this, i want to be okay for you. you deserve better than me"
"i love you and only you. i know you don't feel good and i'm sorry, you deserve the world" he wrapped his arms around me "we can try and get you some help?"
i shook my head "they're gonna judge me. i don't know, i want someone i can trust who gets it. fuck it'd just be so much easier if i died" i sobbed
i could almost hear louis' heart break "baby, don't say that"
i dug my fingers into my wrists and felt the cuts i had previously made rip open, louis grabbed my hand and ripped them from my wrist before grabbing a towel and pressing it to my cuts in silence.
i cried in silence while he cleaned my wrist in silence.
"i think we need to get you help. i know your against it harry but you need to talk to someone. we can try and find someone who understands? i know niall went through something when we were first put together, would you try and talk to him"
i sighed, i knew he was right but i hated the idea of opening up to anyone, "i can try?"
"that's all i needed to hear love"
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Angels deserve to die-Larry Stylinson
Fanfictionedited. I just wanted to do it fast But you always stopped me "Don't do this Harry please" "I need you please Harry don't do this to me" "I'm begging you on my knees, please open the door" You were so warm and caring That I almost believed you wou...
