toxic

Chapter 13

*RIELLYS POV*
It's been 2 weeks. 2 terrible weeks. 2 weeks of hell. 2 depressing cut filled weeks. I miss Jc so much. Every time I pick my phone to call him I can't bring myself to it. He probably hates me right now. God I'm a fuck up. I head to the bathroom & cut across my wrists & thighs. I sigh & clean up. I think to myself whats wrong with me? I want my Jc back. My adorable, sweet, loving Jc. I got out of bee & took a shower. I stood in there for a long time thinking what it would be like if I actually were dead. Life would be so much simpler. Just nothing to worry over. Once I get out I quickly dry off & put on a twenty on pilots tee-shirt & black leggings. I throw my hair up in a messy bun not caring what I looked like. I grabbed my camera & started filming. I edited it & uploaded it to youtube. After that I grabbed my phone & keys & drove to starbucks. I ordered a grande double chocolatey chip frappucino & a tall water. After I got my drinks I sat down at a little table near the window. I was sipping my drink & scrolling through twitter when I seen a tweet from Kian saying Jc had quit youtube. I finished my drink & threw it away. I quickly got in my jeep & drove to their house.

*JCS POV*
"I quit." I say.
"Quit what?" Kian asks.
"Youtube." I say flatly.
"C'mon man don't do this."
"I don't want to film anymore!"
"Okay. I understand." after that kian left me alone to sulk. These past 2 weeks have been hell. I miss her so much. Her smile, her laugh, her eye roll. Everything about her was so perfect. I decided its time to get out of bed & shower up so I did. After my shower I put on a black tank with a cheetah print pocket on the left side, three on some black jeans & my cheetah print vans. I grabbed rasta & left the house without even saying bye to Kian. He was with his girlfriend Ruby anyway so why bother him.