My soul my fire

ok , i love him

  Amanat

I remember my conversation with chirag, he wants me he love Ruhansh after everything happened he is still with me i like to be around him it just I'm shy around him i thought i will never get love but he proved me wrong he loves me a lot i can see , after so many years i felt like i also have emotion of love,  but i am scared,  i don't want to repeat what happened with my mom to me . I am scared of his love he already once left me and now also what if he leave me alone this time

God help me i don't know what is happening in my life my love ruhansh love Chirag

I was sitting in garden as today is Sunday weekend its been 2 days he talked with me about that i know what changes happened which i definitely don't like he doesn't talk much he doesn't hug  me anymore also while sleeping he doesn't cuddle me i miss his touch now just because of my behavior he is behaving such i feel bad for everyone who is in my life

I stood up went inside saw ruhansh sleeping  and chirag was chatting with  someone  . I called his name he didn't respond now he is getting on my nerves

I snatched his phone,  i shoot him with my death glare he looked at me with frown 

What??  He asked making me more angry

Can't you hear me i am calling your name . I said to him he is really getting on my nerves

He got up and started walking towards me he is coming closer i am taking my steps back

What ?...why are u coming closer
. I said to him

You want my attention lemme give you . He said deadly coming closer to me . I was about to hit the wall but he took his step back and sat on couch

I miss his touch why do i miss his touch why do my heart says to believe him why does my heartbeat raises when he comes closer to me . Why why why whyyyyyy . Ohh god.
I saw him he has his phone . I didn't know when he took his phone back he is acting so weird i am not liking this behavior of him today i will kill him he is really irritating me

I angrily goes towards him i again snatch his phone,  he passed me what do you want look like seriously how dare he. 

Chirag its enough we need to talk.  I said

Finally you realised . He said what does he mean finally

Why are acting so weird.  I asked this time my eyes again betrayed me a little sob

You need to understand Amanat i also have feeling main apme dhalu itna kaafi nhi h apko bhi mere rang me rangna chaiye agar hum sath h toh . He said cupping my face

I love you chirag . I said i don't know what i said but from nowhere these words left from my mouth i myself was in shock what i said do i really love him..... Yes ohhhh noooo i love him i loveeeee himmm . Yaahhh ...i love him

What really.  He Smilingly asked he jumped he started dancing he kissed my forehead he is back to his old
Personality he hugged him tightly i cupped his face

I'm sorry for my previous behavior i am really sorry for all the mistakes i did in past month but ya just a second  before i realized i love you  . I said to him while laughing in joy yes he is mine forever to forever

So Mrs rawal would you like to be my soulmate which we already are and would you like to stay with my till the kalyug ends , till the earth  survive.  He asked me

I don't know if i am doing this right or wrong but yeah this is answer to all your question Mr rawal  . I said he to him while he just looked at me blankly
I go on my toes to match his level i kissed him yes i kissed him that too on lips.  I kissed his lips.  Was i really shy before. After doing this shameless thing
We kissed he cupped my face he is missing me wild  this feeling will kill me today uhhhhhh . I love this man

I love so you much Amanat i can not tell you it just fuck it  . He said but stopped in between and again capture my lips with his this kiss of our is all about our regret mistake and guilt which is we are throwing out just love

Suddenly ruhansh came  we did stop kissing each other when Ruhansh called me  from upstairs  . I went to him hugged him he smiled at me

Mummy i want to meet chachi and masi . He said

Chachi and masi who . I asked him

Off hoo Mumma Chachi my rehani chachi and masi rehani masi . He said to which i simply laughed at. 

Yes baby we will go but first get ready from today your Chachi masi will love with us.  Chirag said making my eyes widen i looked at him

He smiled i smiled back he murmured i love you  too which i lowered my eyes