His Broken-Hearted Past

8 Eric's and Four's P.O.V.

Eric's P.O.V.:

I watch Danielle. She's amazingly talented. The lyrics to the song she just sang were true. I lost her. They start doing another song and I immediately recognize it. 

I'm anxious, kinda sad
Hard to be your best when you lost the best you had
Spending days just on my phone
Wondering where it all went wrong
I'm nervous, pretty wired
I said your name too much now my lungs got tired
Thinking maybe I'm to blame
I just need someone to hate

I remember calling her name out in my sleep and Four waking me up. I left her there with hope she wouldn't hold resentment. Since I started this initiation process, I put away all emotion. It has been hard to leave her behind.

Oh-oh-oh, you made this so damn hard for me
You and your goddamn honesty
It got me thinking

She was honest how she felt all the time. Thats why it's so damn hard for me. I broke the only girl I truly ever loved.

I wish you would've cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving
I wish you were the villain
A psycho with no feelings
So how do I move on
When you did nothing wrong? (Ah-ah-ah)
Wish you did something wrong (ah-ah-ah)
But you did nothing wrong

It probably would have been better if I cheated on her. If I just broke it off before the ceremony. She has every right to hate me. But she's hopefully happy if she's with someone. She said I didn't do anything wrong but I did.

Four's P.O.V.:

I see Eric start moving to the door.

"Eric, stop. Just listen to the song. She still cares about you. Don't you see that," I say and he sighs.

"I fucked up by leaving her Four. She's moved on now," Eric says trying to leave again.

I know it's messed up, kinda bad

But I wish we didn't talk, and you just left like that
I'd be angry instead of numb
Dammit, who have I become?
Oh-oh-oh, you made this so damn hard for me
You and your goddamn honesty
It got me thinking

I wish you woulda cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving
I wish you were the villain
A psycho with no feelings
So how do I move on
When you did nothing wrong? (Ah-ah-ah)
Wish you did something wrong (ah-ah-ah)

But you did nothing wrong

Danielle's eyes find Erics as she sings this. She is numb. I can see it in the way she is looking at him. He is also numb to the pain.

In the middle of the night
I start to fantasise that you would ruin my whole life, oh
'Cause you're the best I had
And I keep running back like a goddamn fool, tryna change your mind
You were all mine
Can't believe I
Wish you woulda cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving
I wish you were the villain
A psycho with no feelings
So how do I move on
When you did nothing wrong?

Plenty of times I have waken Eric up from dreaming. He says he went back to the day of the ceremony. He chose to be with her instead. But then I would wake him up out of the dream.  He wouldn't sleep after. I feel bad for the guy. When I go to turn back to Eric, he's gone. Damn he's a complicated guy. I never thought he would get hung up on some girl the way he is.

Eric's P.O.V.:

I walk to the roof. Max is up there.

"Trouble in paradise," he asks.