impermanence

seventy-four.

𝒐𝒓𝒑𝒉𝒆𝒖𝒔 & 𝒆𝒖𝒓𝒚𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒆

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━

if we were still talking now
we could match profile pictures
i have the perfect pair
i thought we were the perfect pair
now i swallow the lump in my throat
every time you resurface
in my mind
every time you refuse to be buried
when i thought you were gone
and then i'm crying on the floor
all over again
and i can't help but wonder
if you ever really loved me
maybe we both strung each other along
maybe i was the problem
giving chances i shouldn't have
looking back for you
with my hand outstretched
like orpheus & eurydice
i was never going to be able to
change the story
and that's where i went wrong
my fatal flaw
it was always destined for tragedy
did you know that
when you asked me to love you
and i said i'd love you to the end
and did you know that
when my heart cracked in half for you
time after time after time
or when you lied
and told me it was the last time
you would hurt me like that again
well then it was the last time
i would trust you like that again
you left me here alone
with no one left to talk to
a future flushed down the drain
our past selves out there lost at sea
did you ever think twice
do you ever think about me now
or am i mourning this on my own
alone
again
the story is always the same
i, orpheus, turn for you, eurydice
in a time of desperate measure
and despair
if only to see your eyes one last time
if only to remember the campfire
over the summer
where i let you go
but orpheus could never really let go
until the final instant
until the sun burst into the dawn
and then he said goodbye to
his eurydice
for the last time