Second Chances

Day Four, Part One - Sexy Charades...

I get up before the others and tiptoe quietly out of the bedroom, heading to the bathroom for a shower. I strip my nightwear off and step in turning on the water, it hits my skin instantly making me wake up from the coldness. As it begins to warm up I step completely under, letting my messy mind wander.

I'd actually chosen to recouple with Noah, as something in me couldn't see him go home. Was it from past feelings, was it that I had possible feelings still there or was it because he had told me I was it for him, and that impulsively made me want to snog his face off.
As soon as he wasn't in view though I somehow found myself locking lips in a heated kiss with AJ, in what could appear to others as us sneaking off and hiding.
Oh, but you didn't just stop there. No, you ended the night with Noah getting you off!
What is wrong with you Luna?! Stop using your vagina brain and start thinking with your actual brain!
Why the fuck do I get myself in these situations?

As I exit the bathroom my head is still scrambled as it's running through what I was going to do and how I was going to handle everything.
I make my way quietly through the villa to the girl's dressing room, hoping the others were still asleep and that I didn't have to face those thoughts head on yet.

I step through the door, listening out for any noises or voices but luckily I'm met with silence. I sit at the vanity mirror and just stare at my reflection, the image of me looking back looks as confused as I feel on the inside. I sort my hair out and put some make up on to try and conceal my emotions and mask the turmoil of not knowing what to do.

The rest of the morning I keep to myself by hitting the gym and leave a bit of a distance between myself and Noah. Even when he brings me a coffee after my workout, I just say thank you and he seems to catch that I need time, nodding and leaving me to it.
I don't have to worry about keeping a distance from AJ, as Talia had that covered and won't leave her side.

Chelsea eventually catches up with me and we hang out on one of the daybeds. I give her the details about what had happened last night, well most of it but leave out the part about the Noah bed shenanigans.
Her mouth is agape as I tell her what Noah had said and me kissing him, she then cheekily smiles and winks as I tell her about how the sexy kiss I'd had with AJ had come to play and how things may have gone further if she hadn't interrupted.

"O M G Bra! You kissed both Noah and AJ! What are you gonna do?" She squeals.

I shush her. "Chels, babes! You gotta keep it down, I'm only telling you this as we are best friends. I don't want the whole villa to know, especially as I don't know what the fuck I'm doing." I place a pillow over my head to hide my face.

She giggles. "Sorry," she pulls the pillow away and puts on her serious face. "as your bestie I'm gonna tell you to just go with your heart. I'm gonna be with you 100% whatever your decision, I've got your back. If you gotta kiss them to find out how you really feel then do what you gotta do. I won't be the gossip sneezer, this time."

I sit up giving Chelsea a side hug. "Thanks Bra."

We make ourselves comfortable on the bed again, I pull down my sunglasses and look out to the garden.

Talia is still hanging on to AJ and not letting her out of her sight as they were still together but had moved location and were now talking on the swing. They were laughing and looked pretty close as Talia laid her hand on AJ's leg. AJ doesn't push it away which irks me a little, but I force myself to move my eyes away.
Why wouldn't she be getting to know her and building up that bond, that's what we are here for to find the best person for us. Besides I'm one to talk, at least theirs is only an innocent hand on leg situation...

Genevieve and Miki walk past us chatting to each other, giving us a small wave as they head to the kitchen.
Noah, Rohan and Bill are on the bean bags while Levi is doing laps in the pool.