THE DON'S MUSLIM MAID

the bombshell

Fatima's POV
Time passed and Isaac and I fell more and more inlove with each other.It was 2months since jalil and my divorce proceedings.One more month and I was finally divorced from him.

I hated spending time with Isaac alone,so I explained to him that it was sinful for the opposite sex to be this close while not married.

This only pushed his eagerness to marry me, something about him wanting to spoil my body with love.

One of the things I loved about Isaac was that he always found a way to make me feel good about myself.he told me that my worth wasn't based on childbirth, but my ability to do the right thing.

I got my second Male cousin to help teach Isaac about Islam, this was to minimize my interactions with Isaac.

I asked Isaac about why he chose Islam.He came clean and told me that,at first it was to marry me but seeing how I was eagered to teach him, pushed to learn more about it .

He wanted to know why it was so important that I had the faith because of Allah, and not because of me.

Soon he got the answers, and found the word of Allah.I couldn't be any happier.

I came happy that Isaac in a few days would convert.I came to the kitchen to find Amina cooking.

The smell of fish made me sick,I rushed out to vomit.I had been getting sick lately.

After emptying everything in my body,I came out to find Amina in my room.
Fatima: what do you want?
Amina: I think you are pregnant (my heart sank)
Fatima:do come in my room, whispering nonsense.

Amina:you have been getting sick lately.
Fatima: what are you,my mother?
Amina: just take the test.(she smiled and left,but her smile seemed fake.I started to become scared.)

I couldn't be pregnant,but I have always wanted to be pregnant.My dream was to become a mom,so why do I hate this.

It's because of my fear of it being jalils, who was k kidding,he was the only man I had slept with my entire life.

If I was indeed pregnant that baby would be his.No it can't be, why does my first fruit have to be a rape baby.Why does it have to be a living remainder that I was raped.

No I rushed to the store and got the test.I came home and had it done.My dream turned nightmare came through.I was pregnant with jalils child.

I was finally pregnant,I got my wish after 8yrs of struggling but now I might hate my own baby.

My innocent baby is going to suffer because it was born out of rape.I wouldn't be able to love it, because it would remind me of what I went through.

Oh no, being pregnant meant that I had to stay with jalil,until my baby was born,to determine his paternity.That would mean, that I couldn't marry Isaac.