In which Francine Maya Rivera from Journalism once again crossed path with Archer Kaden Ladera from Engineering - a guy from her past. Through a mutual friend, she found out that they both attend to the same university and unfortunately for her, she...
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CHAPTERSEVEN
Malayo na ang sasakyan to the point na hindi ko na makita pa si AK.
Maybe this is for the better. Siguro tama nga na ilayo ko na ang sarili ko kay AK. Para sa ikabubuti ko rin naman 'to.
Ako na mismo ang lalayo sa kanya. Kapag nilayo ko ang sarili ko sa kanya, mas maliit ang chance na masaktan ulit ako. Because these coincidental encounters, it's bad — bad for me, bad for my heart.
The further I am from him, the less likely I'm getting a broken heart. And I couldn't take another heartbreak ever again. Once is enough. Dalang-dala na ako. I am too tired of bearing another heartbreak because what if mangyari ulit? What if masaktan ulit ako? I can't the risk.
I would rather avoid a heartbreak than risk myself to another one.
Minsang binigay ko ang lahat, binalik lang sa akin trauma.
Hindi ko na kayang sumugal ulit kasi paano naman ako makakasugal kung hanggang ngayon ubos na ubos pa rin ako...
Sure, I always tell myself that I have moved on. I keep telling myself that I'm so over AK.
But how can you really tell that a person has really, truly moved on?
Kapag wala na talagang feelings kapag nakikita siya? Sure ako na nagwawala pa rin ang puso ko kapag nakikita ko siya.
Kapag hindi mo na sila iniisip? I admit, there's still times that my mind wanders to him and to the things we did in our one-year "relationship".
I admit that I'm in the stage of moving on. I'm in the stage of forgetting him. Akala ko nga naka-move on na ako pero noong nakita ko siya ulit after two years, isang malaking maling akala ko lang pala 'yun.
Nandoon pa rin pala, I can still feel the yearning, the pain — lahat na. I still felt those emotions nang makita ko ulit siya.
Sabi sa isang website na naka-move on ka na talaga kapag wala ka nang nararamdaman na emotional attachment pero wala, meron pa rin palang emotional attachment.
I don't even know why I'm so hung up over AK. It's so frustrating.
I mean, I get it! He's handsome, smart, talented, mayaman, magaling mag-gitara, magalang, may sense of humor, mabait, masaya kasama... basta nasa kanya na ang lahat!
But I'm sick and tired. I'm so done with everything about him.
I just want to be free from his shackles.
As much as I want to forget him, itong puso ko ang kalaban. I can't seem to fight the emotions I'm having whenever he's there even though my brain is screaming and shouting not to.
