ghosts exist // phan

The notes ruined me.

(Dans POV) TRIGGER WARNING
Phil sent me notes. They were good but I just can't control myself after I got the first note, more have come about 2 everyday for the past 2 weeks I loved them don't get me wrong but, they weren't helping. They just made me want to hear that voice. See his face. Also I don't think there is even room left on my arm to cut, I have started on my hips and thighs. When I hear him call me a lunatic, tell me no one cares, I believe him. Why wouldn't I? He's right. I am making the strong decision to see Phil and stay with him forever. There is a very tall building about 3 blocks away tomorrow I'm jumping off of it, tomorrow will be my last day on earth. I'm writing the note now,
'Dear Mom, Adrain, and "Phil".
Mom and Adrian, I have had Phil's voice in my head and I could see him. I could I promise. He has been telling me I'm crazy. He right. No one cares about me anyway, no one will ever care. I'm garbage, I'm a mess, I'm a waste of space, a waste of a life, and of course, a waste of a boyfriend or friend. I wanna die, I'm glad I'm dead now. I will be with the real Phil. I'm sorry I'm so so sorry. I know you don't care, but I care enough about you to to explain why. To "Phil" I hope you are happy I'm dead. You won.
Love a waste of space that is your son, brother or victim (a lunatic)'
I'm tired I'm going to sleep, and when tomorrow arrives I will finally be free.
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It's about 12 in the afternoon. I told my mum I was sick so I stayed at home. She was at work and my brother was at school. I put the note on the kitchen counter, put on my shoes and left. Goodbye world. I started walking and a car parked beside where I was walking I ignored it until a girl with short blonde hair and I white dress came out and shouted to me,
"Daniel Howell" I turned around looked at her and turned back around and kept walking, she wasn't my mum my brother or my therapist. So she was nobody. I kept walking went she ran up beside me and whispered,
"I'm Cally I'm sure Phil told you about me?"
"How about this Cally? You walk away I'm sorry I'm being rude but I'm really busy."
"Busy what? Committing suicide?" I started running. Fast. I turned back before I ran to far ahead and shouted,
"NO" I ran up to the building and walked in the elevator and went up to the roof. I was up on the roof and looked down onto the cold hard pavement below when Cally appeared beside me,
"Dan I can't stop you," I interrupted,
"No you can't"
"But there is so much more to live for Phil is always watching you, I promise he loves you." I whispered one last word,
"Goodbye Cally" I jumped off, I am falling to my death I will never see my friends and family, I heard a splat and felt pain before everything went black.

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