The Gay's Kisses (One-off Series #3)

Kiss 3

DALAWANG araw na yung lumipas at hindi ko na ulit nakita si Francis, Kiana told me that he left for work at babalik ito mamaya dahil bukas na yung kasal.

It's four in the afternoon kaya napag-isipan ko na tumungo sa bar ng restaurant. Wala pang katao-tao dahil maaga pa naman. I ordered a cocktail at umupo sa high stool ng counter.

I closed my eyes as I took a sip from my drink, I didn't find it fruitful. I didn't know that the cocktail I ordered tasted sour, it's my first time kasi to drink a cocktail at wala pa sa supervision ng parents ko. I am already 25 and my parents consent doesn't matter anymore. The Bar pink lang naman kasi yung iniinom ko occasionally before. And I never been alone going into a bar. It's even my first time being inside a bar. So naive.

I lived my life seeing things genuinely wonderful and almost perfect, there's no such thing as perfect. I always believe that beauty is on the inside, yet something clearly mess me up. Walang hiya talaga si Kian, he told me things that I never heard from anyone before.

"I didn't want to date you in the first place, I mean no one wants to date you anyway kasi you look so dull and boring. Ugh, but I got force to do so for my own benefits and besides ang dali mong mauto---"

I slapped him hard.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako naiiyak at parang lumulukot yung tiyan ko. Lasing na ba ako? Siguro.

Saan ba kasi ako nagkulang? It feels like I am not good enough, hindi nga siguro ako kapili-pili kaya never akong minahal ng damuhong Kian na yun. Hindi ko rin naman siya minahal. He shoved to my face before na walang magmamahal sa akin. Is it because I look far from those pretty girls? He unhesitatingly said that I am dull and boring.

Tangina niya talaga. Tears cascaded down my cheeks and I felt dizzy.

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KAKARATING ko lang galing sa meeting and I headed my way immediately dito sa resort. Kiana told me that her friend, Zely, went to the bar alone kaya napag-isipan ko na puntahan siya. It's 8 pm at hindi pa daw siya bumabalik sa room niya.

What the fuck is going on with me? I am longing for her even though it's just two days. I am getting insane, kinakamuhian ko pa rin ang babaeng yun dahil sa karahasang natamo ko. Eme.

Pagkarating ko sa bar ay nakita ko siyang umiiyak at umiinom. She's whining like a child, she's drunk. Napansin ko na she already drank 4 coupe glasses of classic margarita.

"I tried my best to be treated right, why is it always about the looks? My mother told me that I am pretty." I laughed at what she said. Lumapit ko at umupo katabi niya.

"One bottle of rum," sabi ko sa bartender and handed me the drink.

"Hey, mister. Do you find me pretty?" He didn't recognize me at all.

"No, ang chaka mo tignan." I jokingly said but she cried again. Nakakatawa siya, kinuha ko yung phone ko and took a photo of her.

"I hate you, aaa bakla! I can pull guys even though I don't look feisty right now, you'll see."

"Go on." Then, I laughed. But I got stunned when she stood up and removed her denim jacket. She's wearing a black backless halter top na nagpaangat sa glowing skin niya at ngayon ko lang napansin na she's only wearing high-waist short shorts that emphasize her flawless legs.

I gulped. I didn't know she got the curves and vogue aside from her usual, balot na balot and simple manang outfits, ngayon lang yata siya nagkaroon ng sense of fashion. She looks stunning though. What? No, no, no. Why praising her? I am just insecure kasi I have a lean body at hindi tulad sa kaniya. Tama. Ano bang nangyayari sa akin? I am gay.

I saw the bartender eyed her maliciously, hindi pa naman ako lasing dahil kalahati pa ang natutungga ko. I clearly saw the lust in the guy's face, bastos naman ng bruhong 'to.

"What are you doing?" tanong ko kay Zely while blocking the guy's sight.

Ano bang nangyayari sa babaeng 'to? Why is she acting like this?

"I'm no more the dull and boring girl he once met," at naglakad siya patungo doon sa mga lalaki na sumasayaw sa dance floor.

This woman is getting into my nerves. Sinundan ko siya and saw her na parang diring-diri sa mga lalaking nilapitan niya. She can't do it, she's a naive woman---

My fist landed in the face of the guy who tried to kiss her, he tried to harass her. Damn. Hindi alintana sa akin yung sakit ng kamao ko.

"The heck is your problem?" Bago pa man ako suntukin nung lalaki ay hinila ko na si Zely palabas ng bar.

"I'm not hallucinating, it's you Francis. Hi? I'm happy to see you again. How's your day---"

"What are you doing there? Are you out of your mind?" Hindi ko maiwasan na hindi magalit, she seems really naive, yet she's already a grown-up woman. Ugh.

Umiling siya at umiyak ulit. I don't know what to do with her. She's on meltdown.

"I can't find a man for me that will truly love me, no one wants a dull and boring woman. So, I need to spice it up a bit."

"You don't need to change yourself." I said that in an almost whisper tone.

Dumapo yung tingin ko sa labi niyang pulang-pula and I gulped, it's so tempting to taste. Shit, this is not so me!!!

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"REALLY? That's easy for you to say because you never felt unwanted due to your looks---" he cut my words by kissing me, it's a passionate kiss. It makes my whole system malfunction, I don't know how to kiss but I am responding to his kisses.

His lips taste like nectar, it's sweet and addicting. I don't know what type of alcoholic drink he drank but I must say, it tastes good. What am I saying?

Nang lumayo ako sa kaniya ay kita ko ang pamumungay ng mata niya. Nawala yung kalasingan ko at para akong nauupos sa titig niya. I should not give in, not in this situation.

"I don't know what's happening to me but since that day, your kiss created havoc in my system." He huskily said that. Lalaki na ba siya niyan? Bakla!

Nagulantang ako sa sinabi niya and my heart beats erratically. Lasing din yata siya.

"Lasing lang ako, maybe I'm hallucinating right now. I need to wake up." Hindi ko alam anong gagawin, kaya dumistansya ako sa kanya at agad na kumaripas ng takbo. Nakakahiya naman talaga, it seems like I am an easy woman dahil nagpahalik ako. Where in fact, I am really an easy woman since that day na I initiated the kiss.

What the heck was that? Bakit niya ako hinalikan? But I also like it. Ugh, I am screwed. I can't face him anymore or maybe I'll just act na hindi ko maalala ang mga nangyari. Yet, everything is vivid in my mind. Bahala na.