'You don't know what you got until it's gone', no, I knew what I got and it's even harder to accept that I let it be gone. I knew what I got. I got him. God, he felt like an answered prayer. He was kind, he was charming, he was funny that he'd do anything just to make me break a smile. He was exactly the reason why I couldn't regret keeping my heart open. He didn't ask anything for me but to be okay. We didn't even meet as we were in a long distance relationship but he touched my heart in a way no one ever did, not even the guys that have touched my skin before. He was really good to me. I trust him so much because he shows me no reason to be doubtful. I found both a friend and a lover in him.
I had all of that and I still broke up with him. I wanted different things, I wanted to be solitary. I wanted the freedom to grow on my own.
I knew what I got and it pains me that I could still let it all be gone.
