Lie After Lie

Chapter 24

It has been a week and more days. WEEK AND DAYS! And I was just writing that constantly in the book. What do I do? Im on the wooden platform, finally escaping viggo and rykers cruel punishments; cuts, abuse and hunger, and so, so much more. I was finally escaping hell. I wrote, just for my future self to look back at this moment and think about how mentally ill I was in this state. My future self would just look back at my notebook and remember how I escaped viggo so nicely, and easily, which just made me think this could all be a trap. Help. Help. Please. Please. I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't know what, who or where I am. Im sorry for everything. I just want to be back, back with hiccup, with astrid, with fishlegs, with the twins and snotlout, and all, all the dragons. I wanted to be back with deadeye. I could have just fallen for a trap the whole time, but at least I tried. I don't want to die, and I won't. Im going to make this all just to say im sorry for everything to hiccup, explain him everything and say how sorry I am, because he has no idea. I cried hard. Im hungry, Im hungry and I already ate all the small things I could bring, I only had a small blanket while the storms nearly kill me, the two daggers to kill but there's nothing in plain sight anywhere, the map didn't help because I couldn't even see which way I was going, and I was so tired, so, so, so very tired. I could just collapse and close my eyes, from all the abuse and cuts I have gotten from them, I could die. But I wasn't going to die until hiccup knows how I feel about all this. What do I do? Please, please, please. Please just tell me. I had waited for a whole two more weeks after that until I finally found a land, but it wasn't the edge. I was just happy there was something. There's land, there's land and I could be closer to the egde, but on the map theres no land around viggo's base, only on the other other side. A dragon. A dragon had passed. I saw a dragon! I could be much closer than I thought, and after so many weeks, I finally had hope. I smiled at the land as I stepped on it, too familiar sand, where I usually spent my mornings to bathe. This was the edge. I found the edge. Im home, no more suffering, no more hunger, I was free and okay and alive.