Lie After Lie

Chapter 28

"What should we do about viggo?" Hiccup asks as I lean against the wall from the club house. "What do we have to stop him? What can we even use?!" Hiccup sighs and stretches both his arms onto the table in the middle of the club house. "There is nothing we can use right now."

"We might have to wait." Snotlout crosses his arms over his chest. "There's nothing we can do with a liar with us and with no advance in stopping viggo grimborn." I inhale sharply, he was meaning me. "I mean if she would have never even lied to us, we could have maybe gotten a chance to stop him!" He continued as he looked at me, the others looked at me too as I gulped. "But we have nothing now since the dork in the room decided to lie to us all, AGAIN and not be able to be useful at any times. But again, we will have to forgive her like we always do when we are supposed to hate her and never forgive her again! Am I wrong?" Everyone stays quiet. I look around as they all look down. They all thought the same thing. "Right-"

"You are wrong, snotlout." I end up saying, defending myself. "I did lie to you, to all of you, so many times and I am really sorry about it." I hear hiccup scoff. "I know none of you can trust me again. I know that and I regret everything I have done. But I was just trying to get myself back." Tuffnut sighs.

"She's right, snotlout." Tuffnut says. Tuffnut? Tuffnut defending me? After everything I have done? "She never wanted to hurt us. She was forced to do all of it and maybe we can try to trust her again, if we all try." They all stare at me like im an animal in a cage with their pity, but also with a lot of anger. I don't even know what to do.

"We would have all done the same." Ruffnut shrugs. "We might not be able to trust her now, but we can try to in a while. We can try to be the same people we used to be, we can try to be the same happy group we used to be."

"Unless that moron is still in our group, I will not be in this little plan to try to trust her again," Snotlout lets his arms fall. "I can't believe you guys are trying to be her friend again when we obviously can't trust her! 'We would have done all the same', yes, I know! But she still hurt us, all of us would have tried to hurt us the least. She wanted to hurt us, she wanted to cause damage."

"You haven't gone through the things I have, snotlout. You don't know what I've seen on that island and you don't know what ways they chose to use to force me to do this. I had no choice. Do you really think I would want to cause so much damage to a lonely island just because? Do you really think I wanted to hurt you all after getting to know you all so much better?" I asked him. I walked over to the table, next to snotlout.

"Get over it!" He rolls his eyes. "You just keep on repeating what you always say. Did you ever hear this wording: 'It's not what you say it's the thing you choose to do'? It is exactly describing this situation. You keep on apologising about what you did, but at the end of the day, you still did it."

"I am trying, snotlout! I really am." I quiet down my voice. "I am trying to find a reason to not travel to an abandoned island and stay there for the rest of my live with no contact of human life because I think I don't deserve it because of what I did. I have thought I was ruthless and I always thought that I never deserved to be with you guys because of what I continued to do. Don't do this, snotlout. Because i'm really trying. I don't know how I can show you that I am really sorry and that I never wanted to hurt you. I always thought that I was dead to all of you and how I was never important. I always wanted to get my revenge on Viggo, but I never got it. It's useless to get revenge because it's never heals you for the things that has happened to you. I know how badly you all want viggo gone, and I do want him gone aswell but I can't do that without anyone next to me. This is my home that was never meant to be because my supposed to be home is supposed to be viggo's base but it's not. My real home is berk, its wherever you're going with me and it's the edge. No matter what I always try to do, if I try to make anyone happy to be with me or try to make up for everything I have caused I always find a way to hurt them even more and I can never stop it because Im always naive and I always have to listen to my father because he supposedly loves me. And I believe him. I can't even go back to my small little room which was always mine when I was younger because it's now filled with huge armoured men that enjoy hunting and hurting dragons when Im supposed to be in there getting the love I deserve. And Viggo used to love me with all his heart, even though he is a bad person and loves to hurt dragons, he loved me. I was literally shipped to berk, seperated from him." I breathe out quickly and pant. Silence takes over for too long, im uncomfortable now. I feel my palms starting to sweat and my throat started to get a bump in it from holding back tears.

"I'm sorry, asta," Snotlout whispers and admits as I look down. "I was a jerk, I- I am sorry. You didn't deserve to be treated like that and I can't be assuming you were fault to it when it was all Celentine and his mind blowing tricks on peoples brains and personalities."

"It's true," Astrid wraps an arm over my shoulders. "You didn't deserve to be treated like that. You helped us deal and defeat so many individuals, Im sure we can do the same with Viggo if we think correctly and have you by our side. In all type of universes, and in all situations, you are one of us."

"Im more happy than I should be just hearing snotlout and you saying that, you know?" I chuckle as they all do.

"Im pretty proud of myself too." Snotlout flexes his 'muscles' for a second.

"Should we include his father to that- or?" I mumble to astrid as she laughs.

"Probably not," She answers. "Let the man feed himself delusions."

"That's what they all do." I giggle as she joins me.

"I can't disagree." We both smile.