Lie After Lie

Chapter 27

"Im so happy you're back!" Astrid smiles, wrapping an arm around mine. "And Im so happy you're okay, that too." She giggles. 

"Me too!" I smiled. "Im just worried whenever fishlegs will come back with deadeye. I miss her. I really want to see her." I sighed and smile to myself at the thought of deadeye.

"It's been one day since he left," Astrid grabbed my hand. "He'll come back soon. He left just before you got here, it's going to take him a while, no?" I nodded. She was right. He had just left before I got there and I should have ran faster to see deadeye before they left. 

"What if she already decided to join the wilderness?" I asked as Astrid rolled her eyes. "What if she never wants to see me again because of what I did?" 

"Asta, calm down," Astrid smiles. "Deadeye will die out of happiness when she sees you. You both have a special bond because of something, don't you?" I nod. "Don't worry, she will never be happier when she sees you." 

"I hope so." I say as she grabs her axe and I grab mine. "Let's go train in the forest." She smiles and nods. We both run out of her hut with stormfly after us. Astrid jumps on stormfly as I get on behind her. I hold onto her as stormfly takes off. I have forgotten the feeling of flying. "I forgot what it feels like when on a dragon!" I say loudly for her to hear me. 

"Are you okay?" She asks in return. "We can go by foot if you prefer." 

"I feel so free!" I laugh as she joins in. "I love this!" I yell into the air as stormfly goes faster than before, which was faster than most dragons would. "Woo!" I laugh. I notice Astrid smiling. I have missed everything, my whole life on the edge. And nothing, I mean nothing will be the same ever again, but at least I had Astrid by my side. 

We landed on a soft meadow as we both jumped off of stormfly. I run through the meadow, spinning with a smile ear to ear on my face. She laughs at my weirdness as I finally stop, getting slowly dizzy. 

"Don't you love it here?" I ask her as she shrugs. "It's beautiful." I mumble to myself as we start to walk around. We both go spinning around, looking up to the sky. It was all blue except a single cloud, all alone. We continuously spin until we're both yelling and falling to the ground. 

"The grass is so soft!" Astrid gasps as we both laugh. We both lay on the ground, with our heads against each other. She sighs. "Everything is much better with you here." I smiled to myself, knowing that I made someone at least happier with my presence. She might be the only one. 

"Everything is perfect with you next to me." I reply as she giggles. Silence takes over, but it feels comforting. "Can I ask you something?" I ask her as she sits up. She turns to me and nods her head while speaking.

"Of course," She smiles. "You can always ask." 

"Am I in the wrong here?" I ask Astrid as she blinks a couple of times. "I lied to you, I lied to everyone and somehow they still forgave me. But I still feel like Im pretty mad that you guys used me for a distraction and not wanting to check if I was even still alive, and how you just assumed how I was just dead without checking it yourself. I lied, multiple times. I lied about everything, astrid. Everything! But I was forced to, I still feel so guilty and paranoid about it and I am pissed about that you guys didn't check on me, but Im grabbing the victim card, and I can't do that. I know there are worse situations like these, but this one is drowning me." 

"Do you want me to be honest?" Astrid asks as I nod. "We're still not sure if we can trust you, especially after everything that has happened, but we're just as paranoid about this too. And we also feel guilty about not checking on you, especially hiccup and me. But we did what anyone would have done, we forgave you but slept with one eye open. We have to be careful because of the past, but if you're saying the truth, we feel extremely guilty. We are both the wrong in this, we should have checked on you and because of your past and what you have done, we can't trust you anymore. That's what it is, but we can focus on the future and try to trust you, you're one of us." 

"Hiccup said- They all said I wasn't one of them." 

"We were mad." She explains. "When people are mad, they usually get this rush of adrenaline, and that is something powerful. You loose the feeling of pain and just attack. You attack to defend yourself with no calm. You are one of us, but it's starting to fade. This, all about these lies, they're causing your relationship with everyone else to fade and get damaged. You might want to fix that or do something about it, if you can." I sigh. 

"I ruined everything, and I regret it so much." I cover my face with my hands. "It's all my fault, Astrid! I was just so naive, and I was such a villain. I was a traitor." 

Astrid grabbed my hands and dropped them to the ground so she could see my face. "It's not your fault. You were naive, sure, but you were a misunderstood child. You just wanted to do what was best for your own sake." 

"What about the constant lies for no reason?" I asked. 

"Which ones, asta?" Astrid asks as I stayed quiet. "You have never lied to just lie. For all your lies, there was a reasonable reason behind it. You have done what all of us would have done." 

"I should talk to hiccup." I sigh. 

"You go do that," Astrid helps me up as we smile. "Ill bring you later to him, before that, we should have more fun before." We both start running through the grass, laughing.