weight loss diary ✨

(24/04/2024)

my weight is: 49.4 TvT bro this is kinda painful. But i still ate so much, today aswell i ate

i try to stop myself from buying food, but if i dont buy it- my friends give me theirs :(

I was trying to water-fast today but, my mom made me eat breakfast and then my stupid brain lost all the motivation and just ate >:(

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what i ate today:

breakfast: cereal

lunch: chicken strips and wedges

dinner: tomato rice

snack: alpen bar, sensations chips

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Im gonna tell you the truth, i haven't exercised in like 4 days >:( . I cant find motivation though...

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and tbh, school isnt helping either. I get so jealous of seeing other girls and stuff that i give up. Some kid even called me obese today, and it was my crush 😭💀

this type of stuff should motivate me to change, but school is just making it worse. During the holidays i literally had so much less food, and now since school started im not working out or even eating healthy. fuck fuck fuck. 

Ik im not even overweight or anything but it hurts. The only thing i can do for myself is exercise and i can't even do that. Some of my friends are worrying about if their fingers look fat but internally im so jealous (ik other ppl have different problems but rn just let me be jealous) 😭💢

My parents dont let me fast, dont even support me in losing weight. My friends get too worried if i say i want to skip lunch or smth. ik they mean well but can you actually back off a bit? I want to lose weight but it feels like the whole world is against me, even though its my fault i gained so much in the first place 

i feel so dead rn. why is nothing going well for me?

(please dont try to comfort me or message in this, its just a rant)

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should i stop, trying to lose weight for a bit? and come back 2 days later? idk i feel like i need a break.