Breaking Cycles and Rising Through the Cracks

I Ain't Got Nothing Boo-Boo

Got caught up in a world of drama
Should've walked away sooner, but I didn't want'ta.
Guess it's fair for taking on responsibilities I shouldn't have had.
Someone had to do it when the leaders failed and failed again.
Had me feeling a type way.
Watching others just keep walking away.
Guess it was the healthier choice.
Because the gift given to me for my own merits.
Was taken because of others lies and bad habits.
Forcing me to lash out time and time again.
Because my leaders where too afraid to wring me in.
Knew I wouldn't follow anyone.
Had to be someone I'd trust.
So y'all just kept stabbing the knifes from behind in the dark of the night.
Plotting, waiting, counting my missteps.
Too bitter and cowardly to deal with me directly.

Guess that's what you get when you can't lead.
You make an enemy out of someone who can think.
Always with the fucking games.
One day I know you'll get what you gave me just the same.
Karma is a funny thing. It has a way of getting everybody.

Can't be sad, know I'm not a menace.
Not exactly sad over getting the can, when you were the 4th person I had to call boss in my stay in that hell, where nothing's ever good enough.

Didn't matter all the blood I spilled, all the hard hours with no help or backup with my back against the wall, my problems meaningless because I didn't have a vagina.
Just suck it up and be a man.
But not the masculine kind, no be a little bitch who follows orders and doesn't think.
Can't have you outperforming your teammates, no, we'll keep you second guessing, form a coven against you.
Cause we're jealous and scared. Fuck your independence, fuck your courage. Just listen and obey.

I'm sorry girls but that's just not me.
I can't follow blindly to my unbringing.
It was fun while it lasted, y'all would have had if I hadn't self ejected.
I'll admit you had me pretty good.
I'm afraid tho I haven't done yet what I was created to do.

I'll take this ending as break from all the bullshit that was shoveled on my plate. I know you girls are sinking, because you're running out of people to point at to cover up all of your blatant mistakes.
So you tell me boo-boo, how people like you in big bad group always afraid of lone wolves like me?
What's so scary about a man on his own?
Isn't that what you hoes want for all us niggaz who you can't control?
Don't you want us alone?