random things in lowercase letters

you

i find it funny how the human heart
can handle all the emotions
the brain makes.
how it can cope up with the feeling of
unfamiliarity; something strange.
for something the heart never felt before
yet,
it can recognize those things
like a programmed system.
attachment is the worst feeling that
anybody could feel followed by a
longing no one knew
when did it started.
like a forgotten memory longed to be
remembered.
like
you're still alive, but your ghost and thoughts
follows me in every corner of
my room filled with the loudest silence.
i see your name in between the torn pages
of my favorite book.
and i think about you almost in every beat my heart make.
those intimate yet innocent thoughts
of holding you close to my
body feels like the
softest pillow i could never lay a finger on.
loving a person you haven't met yet
was like an old poem i
misplaced a long time ago.
you absence brings chaos in heaven.

i missed you like i never missed
anyone before.

and i love you like you were
mine before.