Lyssa's Poem Book

TOO LOUD

It's too loud

What's too loud?

Everything is too loud

I don't want to hear your voice

I don't have an easy choice

The voices in my head, tearing me apart

It's so loud again

The voices all around me

Strangers, friends, and family

Why do they expect too much from me?

I'm overwhelmed, it's getting too loud

Please stop for a minute, it feels too loud

I can't do everything you want me to

Right now it's hard to do anything at all

But they're screaming in my ear and my brain

It's too fucking loud

I need to sit down

I need to breathe

I need to stop worrying 

But I'm not allowed

I have to do this, I have to do that, I have to not forget

Even the dreams are loud now

Be quiet, I need more time

Be quiet, what's happening to me?

Be quiet

Be quiet

I can't do this

Why am I not able to grow?

I'm supposed to be better now but I feel so much worse

Don't tell me I can do better

It's a lie, you're too loud

I'm just trying to exist but everything is too loud

I'm shaking, nothing is my fault

I'm breaking, why is there so much pressure?

I'm faking, you don't want to see how I am

But it's too much

Leave me alone

It's too loud

It's too loud

I have to stop for a moment

But it's still not allowed