Lyssa's Poem Book

Pre-Pain

I'm experiencing early withdrawals

It's like the joy has already been ripped away from me

I don't want to be forgotten

But it feels like I already have been

I don't want to be an afterthought

I'm shaking from letting my mind run so far

But I know you won't need me soon

So it feels like I already do nothing

Even when all my attention is for you

I'm always afraid of the future

Can't we stay here forever, together?

I don't want you to move on

You'll be happier when I'm dimming

You won't have a clue that I'm this selfish

Because you'll have everything you want

And I'll feel as if you're even further away

Like you've found another world and left mine behind

Don't fly away so soon

I've always been here rooting for you

But secretly not the way you must want me to

I'm sorry for these worries

Becoming like this is hurting me

I'm starting to wonder if it never should've happened

I focus too easily, then nothing else matters

So what happens when one thing matters too much?

Maybe I should have ignored what I saw

But it's too late now

I'm not letting go

Please don't leave me abandoned

It's too early for this feeling to be over,

Will I ever cross your mind after the end begins?